8th may. the moments of holding on was happiness. that surprising moment was fast yet unforgettable. it was awesome awesome awesome! :):):):):):) but guilt prevails...
lengshan......
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
193
haha in the morning itself Nicole and I went to church together and then realized that everyone was late! and then later realise that everyone should be reporting to g2 cause of some emergency and yixian was like super pissed..until really quite scary..then yixian, David, Kia kiang, Nigel, Nicole and I had to walk from church to redhill mrt which is a really long walk then halfway we heard running footsteps from behind and I saw tiffany ran towards me and then cover my eyes! I was like stunned and next moment I heard alot of noises..after a short while b1's hands get to turn sweaty hahaha which is so funny cause she felt very gross but I still love her..! :) then after I opened my eyes in front of me was a birthday cake with all yellow candles!!:) it's so nice!!:) haha and the cake is really nice cause there's white chocolate on the top and normal chocolate for the cake which taste awesomely nice!!:) haha after we went back each of them gave me something yellow and they all wrote their notes in the birthday cake box hahaha..they are so sweet and they all wore yellow too hahaha except for kah sheng and Rafael but it's ok!:) still "roll eyes at them" :) but Rafael said that t
he wore a yellow wristband that says awesome! nice..hehe give thanks for them..:)
he wore a yellow wristband that says awesome! nice..hehe give thanks for them..:)
Thursday, February 11, 2010
192
on tuesday which is the month of feb my mummy asked me out and we went to toa payoh to have dinner and bought some stuff..we went to this value shop and we two saw these three tweety bird candy-like things and they are so cute!! but cause one of them is pink eeeee and they are very ex about three bucks..I decided not to buy..ok hold that thought then..as mummy and I were heading home we tried some tongue rolling cum sound making thing which is so cool!! hahaha and we kept laughing on the bus so I am sure everyone would think that we are two lunatics haha..but wow thank God for that night cause it's been long since both of us had such a fun time!!:) then I went home and was typing my testimonial whole waiting for the day to come..when the day came I was so excited!! haha and the first was Joanne who is my primary school friend haha..then at around twelve fifteen I heard the sound of keys and in pop my mummy!! so I was like so sweet! cause I thought she purposely came for just to say happy birthday at twelve haha but then after that I heard Nicole and elo's voices ad followed by Josh lui Josh Ng ah gong and Kenneth!!!!!! I was like so super shock can!! yeah and I was surprised by the surprise! they very nice..so so sweet! elo got a pair of yellow slippers for me it's very very nice!!:) and Josh lui and ah gong baked cookies for me haha quite rare uh..haha and Josh Ng went to find a lighter for me which cost sixty one dollars so they didn't buy..thank God they didn't if not I will feel really bad..and thanks kenneth for the mango cake! :) we then talk quite a while and then Josh Ng ah gong and Kenneth left and then ya elo and Josh lui stayed for the night!! haha they so sweet to have accompanied me for my first eight hours hehe..they are such an awesome bunch of people!! oh oh the most amazing thing is that everyone came in pairs!! my mummy and ah hua yi.. Nicole and elo.. Josh lui and Josh ng.. ah gong and Kenneth!! so cool..:) really thank God for them..:)
Sunday, February 7, 2010
191
after ballet I went to meet my primary school friends around somerset..I kinda like taking 190 cause it's a really long journey and plusmore there's highway and I really like the feeling..:) then I shopped at 313 Harris for a while before meeting them at orchard central..we ate our dinner at heaven's loaf at level eight and the ambience is awesome!!:) cause it's an open air area and the night view is very very nice!:) hahaha the food is super ex can! like one pizza is about 18 plus cheapest? so in total the five of us ate only two pizzas which cause us 49.20 in total..and we are not even full cause each of us have about three to four slices..while we were eating our hair kept flying around cause it's super cooling..and we heard birds kept chirping and returning to their nests hahaha..and we saw lights moving on the sky and even saw UFO!! haha I guess only when you visit that place then you can understand haha..and we realise how poor we are..and that next time we must have an appetizer, main course and dessert on everyone's twenty first birthday!:) so cool so cool!!:)
after we finish eating they brought me a cake!!:) this cake is a total different one!! cause it's got my name and they decorate the icing thing on top which looks so nice!!:) its like a yellow background with very colourful flowers at the side and the flowers are those kinda flowers that I love!!:) the flowers are like the kind of biscuits that we usually eat when we were young? whereby there're different colours of icing on top de and I love those kind of biscuits!:) overall the cake looks just so awesome!!!:) its the best cake I have receive so far in my entire life it's very very nice!!:) but the place doesn't allow people to celebrate birthdays with cakes unless you pay about thirty five dollars? it's so weird right! haha so they secretly sing birthday song for me and cause I was too shocked by the cake that my birthday is saying grace hahaha..oh well dont think it will be my only birthday cake haha..then cause we are not so full so swen entice us to eat a banana nutella toast thing which sounds super nice so we decided to go there and try! its all the way at far east so to save on adult fare we walked all the way there..
the shop is called tom n toms coffee!:) it's a Korean version of starbucks and there is this room that is situated at the corner which looks super cool to be in it! but cause the aircon inside broke down so we decided to stay outside which is good too lah..hahaha then we ordered banana nutella thick toast, mango smoothie and cookies and cream torncinno! torncinno is part of the coffee which I thought I won't like it cause I hate coffee and I always cannot stand the smell haha..ok then they asked the people working at the toms whether can celebrate birthday..and they said actually it's cannot de but they cut some slack ya so nice right!!:) oh one thing very cool about toms is when you are waiting for the food to come hahaha it's a very nice surprise so shan't spoil it here!:)
so when the food came the toast looks super awesomely good lah!!!!!! and it's super nice! looks very nice and the taste is just brilliant!!!! and hahaha it's my top favourite food now!!! it used to be shepherd's pie but this one is so much nicer!!:) haha and I tried the cookies and cream torncinno and it's so super good!!! yes it has coffee taste but it's like almost zero and the whole thing just taste super nice!!:) love it too!:) it kinda change my view about coffee haha..and the people at toms are really nice cause since it's my birthday so they gave us an apple strudel and said it's on the house! so nice and somemore it's quite a big portion!:) so so happy!!:) haha then we talked a lot of rubbish stuff like hoodies and cream hahahahahahahaha and then we had a prize ceremony!!:) they are so sweet they gave me a box with tweety bird plasters, a bear-like post-its, a drawing of a tweety bird card, a rabbit pencil box with a yellow doreamon pen in it, a super awesomely nice tweety bird pullover and a thingy!! hahaha the pullover and the thingy is what I have always wanted!!:) so happyyyyy!!:) haha love them all and thks to Amanda Joanne wan swen and xue er for celebrating my birthday!! though Ruth is not here but know she remembered!! hehehe love the six of us to bits....:):):):):):)
after we finish eating they brought me a cake!!:) this cake is a total different one!! cause it's got my name and they decorate the icing thing on top which looks so nice!!:) its like a yellow background with very colourful flowers at the side and the flowers are those kinda flowers that I love!!:) the flowers are like the kind of biscuits that we usually eat when we were young? whereby there're different colours of icing on top de and I love those kind of biscuits!:) overall the cake looks just so awesome!!!:) its the best cake I have receive so far in my entire life it's very very nice!!:) but the place doesn't allow people to celebrate birthdays with cakes unless you pay about thirty five dollars? it's so weird right! haha so they secretly sing birthday song for me and cause I was too shocked by the cake that my birthday is saying grace hahaha..oh well dont think it will be my only birthday cake haha..then cause we are not so full so swen entice us to eat a banana nutella toast thing which sounds super nice so we decided to go there and try! its all the way at far east so to save on adult fare we walked all the way there..
the shop is called tom n toms coffee!:) it's a Korean version of starbucks and there is this room that is situated at the corner which looks super cool to be in it! but cause the aircon inside broke down so we decided to stay outside which is good too lah..hahaha then we ordered banana nutella thick toast, mango smoothie and cookies and cream torncinno! torncinno is part of the coffee which I thought I won't like it cause I hate coffee and I always cannot stand the smell haha..ok then they asked the people working at the toms whether can celebrate birthday..and they said actually it's cannot de but they cut some slack ya so nice right!!:) oh one thing very cool about toms is when you are waiting for the food to come hahaha it's a very nice surprise so shan't spoil it here!:)
so when the food came the toast looks super awesomely good lah!!!!!! and it's super nice! looks very nice and the taste is just brilliant!!!! and hahaha it's my top favourite food now!!! it used to be shepherd's pie but this one is so much nicer!!:) haha and I tried the cookies and cream torncinno and it's so super good!!! yes it has coffee taste but it's like almost zero and the whole thing just taste super nice!!:) love it too!:) it kinda change my view about coffee haha..and the people at toms are really nice cause since it's my birthday so they gave us an apple strudel and said it's on the house! so nice and somemore it's quite a big portion!:) so so happy!!:) haha then we talked a lot of rubbish stuff like hoodies and cream hahahahahahahaha and then we had a prize ceremony!!:) they are so sweet they gave me a box with tweety bird plasters, a bear-like post-its, a drawing of a tweety bird card, a rabbit pencil box with a yellow doreamon pen in it, a super awesomely nice tweety bird pullover and a thingy!! hahaha the pullover and the thingy is what I have always wanted!!:) so happyyyyy!!:) haha love them all and thks to Amanda Joanne wan swen and xue er for celebrating my birthday!! though Ruth is not here but know she remembered!! hehehe love the six of us to bits....:):):):):):)
Sunday, January 31, 2010
people you loved
throughout this mission trip and also the following days, so far until sat night, God has shown me something which is closed to my heart.
during the mission trip, i had a chance to work with kids and many things screwed up so everything failed. everything fall short of what i had expected. it was then i realise that God had started to show me his heart. but God didn't stop here.
from tues to fri, i have met my match. i guess i was too complacent about the gift i thought i had, but this friend of mine was just so different from the rest. i didn't know i would actually be like that, so interested to know and find out but yet, it may be just a dream. then today, its those little minor things that had made me felt God again.
elo and ya told me that its good that i found out today and this side. i was also quite amazed at the extent of how it had affected me, but i had seen it clear today and i thank God for showing this to me too. it isn't a bad thing but at least i realise that its not just what i wanted so i was errr..ok lah quite indifferent about it..
despite all the disappointment and hurts i've had from man, God still gave me awesome friends to be here for me..like elo, who i know that she always remembers the small small things and would text me to ask me how was it..my next prayer would be that God would gave me a memory to do likewise..for ya, i was thankful that she confronted the issue of informality to me and also, we both realise that we can be friends but never colleagues cause one is too "anything" while the other is too "perfectionist" haha..for honeypi, thanks for lending me things which no one would lend me, and tolerating my nonsense and my "urgency" HAHAHA and thanks for all the fun and retarded things we do together! :) for elvina, thanks for allowing me to know about your life and i think that itself is the most comforting thing that you have given me.. :) for denise, thanks for the plan or new year resolution that we share which made us closer! :) for tiffy, thanks for having the heart to care for shash and always asking about me and the friends around me.. :) for kenneth, thanks for understanding and taking the effort.. :) for joey, thanks for noticing and then following up via texting cause it really meant alot.. :) for jernine, thanks for being so weird and haha always hi-fiving me and R-U-O-K with me! :) for huiyi, thanks for caring especially when i didn't expect it.. :) for yixian, thanks for being so sensitive and always see things which people don't see cause i really felt appreciated.. :) for sonbry, thanks for the fun and laughter when working with you! :)
cannot help but thank God for revealing Himself to me and making me this way cause because of the minor things, i now then realise that i can understand how people feel..God indeed is always fair :)i understand that it is really painful when the people you loved so dearly did not love you back..
lengshan; match :)
during the mission trip, i had a chance to work with kids and many things screwed up so everything failed. everything fall short of what i had expected. it was then i realise that God had started to show me his heart. but God didn't stop here.
from tues to fri, i have met my match. i guess i was too complacent about the gift i thought i had, but this friend of mine was just so different from the rest. i didn't know i would actually be like that, so interested to know and find out but yet, it may be just a dream. then today, its those little minor things that had made me felt God again.
elo and ya told me that its good that i found out today and this side. i was also quite amazed at the extent of how it had affected me, but i had seen it clear today and i thank God for showing this to me too. it isn't a bad thing but at least i realise that its not just what i wanted so i was errr..ok lah quite indifferent about it..
despite all the disappointment and hurts i've had from man, God still gave me awesome friends to be here for me..like elo, who i know that she always remembers the small small things and would text me to ask me how was it..my next prayer would be that God would gave me a memory to do likewise..for ya, i was thankful that she confronted the issue of informality to me and also, we both realise that we can be friends but never colleagues cause one is too "anything" while the other is too "perfectionist" haha..for honeypi, thanks for lending me things which no one would lend me, and tolerating my nonsense and my "urgency" HAHAHA and thanks for all the fun and retarded things we do together! :) for elvina, thanks for allowing me to know about your life and i think that itself is the most comforting thing that you have given me.. :) for denise, thanks for the plan or new year resolution that we share which made us closer! :) for tiffy, thanks for having the heart to care for shash and always asking about me and the friends around me.. :) for kenneth, thanks for understanding and taking the effort.. :) for joey, thanks for noticing and then following up via texting cause it really meant alot.. :) for jernine, thanks for being so weird and haha always hi-fiving me and R-U-O-K with me! :) for huiyi, thanks for caring especially when i didn't expect it.. :) for yixian, thanks for being so sensitive and always see things which people don't see cause i really felt appreciated.. :) for sonbry, thanks for the fun and laughter when working with you! :)
cannot help but thank God for revealing Himself to me and making me this way cause because of the minor things, i now then realise that i can understand how people feel..God indeed is always fair :)i understand that it is really painful when the people you loved so dearly did not love you back..
lengshan; match :)
thank You Lord
those two words really did hurt me. but it was solved already. thanks for letting me know that you treasured our friendship. thanks for letting me know that it did bothered you. thanks for clarifying with me. now i understand.
ok cool! yes finally i got my precious back from sonbry! i missed my precious real book so so much that i couldn't even write my reflections about CP now immediately.. but because of that i still thank God for it :)oh well today during youth service we danced every move i make and everyone of stage is super duper cool! hehe and i personally really enjoyed it! haha although jernine kinda screwed up cause he really cannot coordinate his hands HAHAHA but i'm very glad that he is my dance partner cause his weirdness always make me laugh!! hahaha :) and rafael really did an awesome job on emcee-ing! haha i think he's really natural cause like even though he made a mistake, he just laughed it over and not nervous at all! haha real people are just so awesome! so many hidden talents! :) and samuel did a great job sharing his testimony, cause he is really genuine yeah.. :) next joey preached and i learned alot! even though some of the points i have heard it during real but they still gave me a new feeling after hearing them the second time..here are some points that struck me..
-the biblical idea of excellence is each believer reaching his greatest potential
-give your best shot, over-do your ministry, cell, church and even your family
-if we are patient with people, they will surprise you one day (this is so true)
-revival comes not by the pursuit of programmes but the prayer of people
-church exists to make us holy and not happy
-the greatest gift you can give to young people is to believe (this is so true)
i was really really happy to be with my lovely girl again on friday. that night, i saw a different side of her and i really wanna thank God for tiffy for not giving up on her..she said you prayed and i was so so so happy when i heard that and in my mind i kept saying thank you Lord. i dunno what has made her u-turn but i thank the Lord for it really really.. :) gosh, i really really am so glad.. :)
and today met tiffy and had a talk for a short while and its only after talking to her then i realise how much i miss her too cause i didn't see her on friday. and i realise too that i gave both of them the same smile, the smile of missing..and i really really wish that i could spend more time with them..and that i could pray with them more often..
ok then on sat morning, elo, ya and i went out and i really love going out with the two of them! i miss elo so so so much! i saw her kindness even though she is in the midst of not so nice people and the love she had for kids..today i also saw her gentleness towards us and her alittle sorrowful tone(thats what i feel though so shall not jtc-jump to conclusions) when she talked about her bestfriendship..really pray that she could believe in the Lord..
ok next at night i went with mummy, kor and hui ping to buy iphone! and i got one white one! hmmm cannot really feel the happiness yet i guess..but soon soon..yeah..
lengshan; blessed :)
ok cool! yes finally i got my precious back from sonbry! i missed my precious real book so so much that i couldn't even write my reflections about CP now immediately.. but because of that i still thank God for it :)oh well today during youth service we danced every move i make and everyone of stage is super duper cool! hehe and i personally really enjoyed it! haha although jernine kinda screwed up cause he really cannot coordinate his hands HAHAHA but i'm very glad that he is my dance partner cause his weirdness always make me laugh!! hahaha :) and rafael really did an awesome job on emcee-ing! haha i think he's really natural cause like even though he made a mistake, he just laughed it over and not nervous at all! haha real people are just so awesome! so many hidden talents! :) and samuel did a great job sharing his testimony, cause he is really genuine yeah.. :) next joey preached and i learned alot! even though some of the points i have heard it during real but they still gave me a new feeling after hearing them the second time..here are some points that struck me..
-the biblical idea of excellence is each believer reaching his greatest potential
-give your best shot, over-do your ministry, cell, church and even your family
-if we are patient with people, they will surprise you one day (this is so true)
-revival comes not by the pursuit of programmes but the prayer of people
-church exists to make us holy and not happy
-the greatest gift you can give to young people is to believe (this is so true)
i was really really happy to be with my lovely girl again on friday. that night, i saw a different side of her and i really wanna thank God for tiffy for not giving up on her..she said you prayed and i was so so so happy when i heard that and in my mind i kept saying thank you Lord. i dunno what has made her u-turn but i thank the Lord for it really really.. :) gosh, i really really am so glad.. :)
and today met tiffy and had a talk for a short while and its only after talking to her then i realise how much i miss her too cause i didn't see her on friday. and i realise too that i gave both of them the same smile, the smile of missing..and i really really wish that i could spend more time with them..and that i could pray with them more often..
ok then on sat morning, elo, ya and i went out and i really love going out with the two of them! i miss elo so so so much! i saw her kindness even though she is in the midst of not so nice people and the love she had for kids..today i also saw her gentleness towards us and her alittle sorrowful tone(thats what i feel though so shall not jtc-jump to conclusions) when she talked about her bestfriendship..really pray that she could believe in the Lord..
ok next at night i went with mummy, kor and hui ping to buy iphone! and i got one white one! hmmm cannot really feel the happiness yet i guess..but soon soon..yeah..
lengshan; blessed :)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
REAL mission trip to bintang
this is my first mission trip and its great! hmmm the reason why i said its great not because everything that had happened there are happy stuff but because there are highs and lows and there are so many take-aways..ok basically went from 23rd jan to 25th jan (sat to mon)!
22nd jan! fri! :)
talked about fri first.. :) had real and yes finally went for real after my trip to genting and its only until i see them then i realise how much i missed them, cause i know that although everyone was tired and not smiling when they see me(when they should ar!) but i realised i just smiled when i see them.. >< hehe then there was planning to be done for the whole entire day. i thought it would be very boring and slow but it was very fast and exciting! we did like super many things! :)we watched a video on how to dance the song, "every move i make", draw a "+" and a "-" sign, nicole, gaomin, samuel, jialiang, nigel and i started to draw and colour super nice pictures! :)haha we took alot of photos too, so basically it was a fast day though we are quite slack haha..oh then at night i went to night safari with the auzzie ppl and mummy. one of the highlights are the bats place but it closed! so sad! but this time i got closer to the flying squirrel! so i guess it compensate for it yup! hmmm and gosh, after this, i got super scared and wouldn't wanna get near you at all but as for the other one, i'm happy to be with you cause you've taught me alot of stuff :)ok then we went to mustafa and cause of some miscom, in the end mummy and i had to search for the auzzie ppl for so long and we had to search every corner of the building from bottom to top floor..now i am super familiar with the place already..yeah oh well, so they went off and i would miss mel, wenggor, richard and simon..they two are so adorable! :)
23rd jan! sat!
yayyy first day of mission trip!! hmmm it didn't start off good cause due to some hiccups we had to delay the mission trip or cancel it!! we were like oh my gosh..so scary..but thank God that in the end all's well so phew..so all of us set off to batam first then bintan! then we went to eat lunch at some restaurant and the food was so good! haha it wasn't the kinda mission trip that i expected haha..ok next kah sheng, joshua and i are supposed to lead some events for the children's church but i think cause like we don't have enough planning and that the place is very small that we didn't expect it..but i think the saddest thing is the children's response..yeah..then that night ya was very anxious about the event on sunday morning cause she is in charge of children's church too..so that night many ppl came to our room to help nicole to come up with plans and games and events and they did so many funny things!
24th jan! sun!
yayyy the children church thing is very successful and the kids are so cute! :)yeah..then the next big event is the planning of the youth programme! I was paired up with sonbry! haha forever working with him de..and we are in charge of the skipping section in which we came up with a super cool title and that is SKIP THE TITLE! so cool right! haha i think we are just too smart..>< haha and he ar..forever so detailed..haha but it is his strength too! :)
25th jan! mon!
we went to the tuition place and taught the kids tuition and when we have to pray with our eyes open, the feeling is quite scary..but somehow the place is too crowded so rafael, joshua, nicole and i went to the barren place there and play chap tay and play throwing stones and super amused by the wells..yeah..then we went back to singapore via ferry and super many things to reflect upon..yeah..everything is brief now yeah..cause its kinda hard to say..yup! :)
lengshan; tired
22nd jan! fri! :)
talked about fri first.. :) had real and yes finally went for real after my trip to genting and its only until i see them then i realise how much i missed them, cause i know that although everyone was tired and not smiling when they see me(when they should ar!) but i realised i just smiled when i see them.. >< hehe then there was planning to be done for the whole entire day. i thought it would be very boring and slow but it was very fast and exciting! we did like super many things! :)we watched a video on how to dance the song, "every move i make", draw a "+" and a "-" sign, nicole, gaomin, samuel, jialiang, nigel and i started to draw and colour super nice pictures! :)haha we took alot of photos too, so basically it was a fast day though we are quite slack haha..oh then at night i went to night safari with the auzzie ppl and mummy. one of the highlights are the bats place but it closed! so sad! but this time i got closer to the flying squirrel! so i guess it compensate for it yup! hmmm and gosh, after this, i got super scared and wouldn't wanna get near you at all but as for the other one, i'm happy to be with you cause you've taught me alot of stuff :)ok then we went to mustafa and cause of some miscom, in the end mummy and i had to search for the auzzie ppl for so long and we had to search every corner of the building from bottom to top floor..now i am super familiar with the place already..yeah oh well, so they went off and i would miss mel, wenggor, richard and simon..they two are so adorable! :)
23rd jan! sat!
yayyy first day of mission trip!! hmmm it didn't start off good cause due to some hiccups we had to delay the mission trip or cancel it!! we were like oh my gosh..so scary..but thank God that in the end all's well so phew..so all of us set off to batam first then bintan! then we went to eat lunch at some restaurant and the food was so good! haha it wasn't the kinda mission trip that i expected haha..ok next kah sheng, joshua and i are supposed to lead some events for the children's church but i think cause like we don't have enough planning and that the place is very small that we didn't expect it..but i think the saddest thing is the children's response..yeah..then that night ya was very anxious about the event on sunday morning cause she is in charge of children's church too..so that night many ppl came to our room to help nicole to come up with plans and games and events and they did so many funny things!
24th jan! sun!
yayyy the children church thing is very successful and the kids are so cute! :)yeah..then the next big event is the planning of the youth programme! I was paired up with sonbry! haha forever working with him de..and we are in charge of the skipping section in which we came up with a super cool title and that is SKIP THE TITLE! so cool right! haha i think we are just too smart..>< haha and he ar..forever so detailed..haha but it is his strength too! :)
25th jan! mon!
we went to the tuition place and taught the kids tuition and when we have to pray with our eyes open, the feeling is quite scary..but somehow the place is too crowded so rafael, joshua, nicole and i went to the barren place there and play chap tay and play throwing stones and super amused by the wells..yeah..then we went back to singapore via ferry and super many things to reflect upon..yeah..everything is brief now yeah..cause its kinda hard to say..yup! :)
lengshan; tired
Thursday, January 21, 2010
genting trip! :)
this is like the dunno number what trip already..but every time genting seems different to me. i went with extremely different this time and i've got what i wanted. i want to know what is exactly wrong with me these few days. this year is obviously the most awesome year for me. holiday meaning no studying at all, saltshakers still as close, i can be a member in shash, and of course real! like everything is so perfect and so comfortable but in me, i know that its not good. and yeah, in this trip, i found one flaw that i myself cannot stand it.
anyway, i went together with a bunch of australians who are actually vietnamise and they have cantonese as their main language and wow its really hard to communicate with them plus more they have the auzzie accent which makes us even harder to communicate! haha there are seven of them in total, two are parents and five kids which are guy 22, guy 20, girl 14 and twin boys 10! weng gor is very pro and his command of english is super good yet he still say that english is one of his worse? haha and during this trip i learned so much from him! he is a tech ass HAHAHA and a med sci HAHAHA and his jokes is like ERRRR kinda thing..haha but he is really funny and he is an awesome brother who takes care of his siblings and me too! :)haha weng gor is like weng brother in cantonese! then seng gor is more of a really quiet guy who hated it when i talked alot HAHA but i think he is just kidding la..he just likes quiet atmosphere. then next is mel who is really nice and she's really pretty, she gives me the pocahontas feeling HAHA and i hanged out most of my time with her and though she is younger than me but she understands my late waking up-ness! :) next is the twin boys who are extremely cute!! their names are richard and simon and its really really hard to differentiate them but haha during the trip my brother and i notice some ways to tell them apart and they are so so so cute! haha the questions they ask are really cute.. :) overall we had real fun on corkscrew, space shot and flying coaster!! these three are the highlights and its a must to play when go genting! :)
lengshan;sinking
anyway, i went together with a bunch of australians who are actually vietnamise and they have cantonese as their main language and wow its really hard to communicate with them plus more they have the auzzie accent which makes us even harder to communicate! haha there are seven of them in total, two are parents and five kids which are guy 22, guy 20, girl 14 and twin boys 10! weng gor is very pro and his command of english is super good yet he still say that english is one of his worse? haha and during this trip i learned so much from him! he is a tech ass HAHAHA and a med sci HAHAHA and his jokes is like ERRRR kinda thing..haha but he is really funny and he is an awesome brother who takes care of his siblings and me too! :)haha weng gor is like weng brother in cantonese! then seng gor is more of a really quiet guy who hated it when i talked alot HAHA but i think he is just kidding la..he just likes quiet atmosphere. then next is mel who is really nice and she's really pretty, she gives me the pocahontas feeling HAHA and i hanged out most of my time with her and though she is younger than me but she understands my late waking up-ness! :) next is the twin boys who are extremely cute!! their names are richard and simon and its really really hard to differentiate them but haha during the trip my brother and i notice some ways to tell them apart and they are so so so cute! haha the questions they ask are really cute.. :) overall we had real fun on corkscrew, space shot and flying coaster!! these three are the highlights and its a must to play when go genting! :)
lengshan;sinking
Monday, January 18, 2010
don't deserve
wow so many things happen during the weekend and today!!
sat!
ok went out with joanne to buy the awesome cap for josh! haha and we looked really cute with yeah..oh well haha then we went to cine to buy josh's cap which is branded ok..ok then we went to charlene's house and joanne and i made a total embarrassing scene on the bus and it was totally hilarious!! HAHA ok i think only we would laugh..cause we are super retarded, oh btw joanne is retard and i am retarded! cause my cell girl told me that retarded is the past tense of retard so i was a retard but now joanne is! haha i can expect unexpected things when i am with her haha! ok then we celebrated josh's birthday! and i think i am super smart! cause to surprise josh i decided to do a pair prayer so that when josh closed his eyes to pray then we can off all the lights and sing happy birthday to him!! oh but in the end thank God he offered to go toilet, oh well not offered but he did went toilet so we hurry rush everything and ta da!! happy birthday to dear josh who just turned twenty! :)HAHAHA i just got this thing about turning twenty haha which isn't very publishable haha..what kind of word..HAHA
sun!
woke up super early to go for ballet performance which turns out that the audience is probably about less than thirty? so pathetic.. :( oh and the MC is some superstar but dunno his name..and i just realise what kinda style i like!! HAHA :) hehehehe oh well, ok then went for service halfway! ok and then bryson and i set off from g1 to meet yixian and rafael and ate subway my fav love it to the max! :) oh and i like working with the three of them cause we realise that we are actually DISC! like yixian is a D, I am an I, rafael is an S and bryson is a C! so cool right! haha and sometimes its like really funny working with them! like many things happen on mon at bryson's house!
mon!
cause like we would laugh at rafael's lousy hokkien HAHAHAHA pig's trotters! and laugh at how super duper neat bryson is! and yixian's intelligence in which she said that she's born with it! HAHA..ok i guess alot of inside joke..oh well, they are just a super nice bunch of awesome ppl! :)oh and bryson's house is really cool and the cool thing is also of the paintings in his house that amazes rafael and bryson's super cute jack russell called blank-co! and we tried the bubble tea that we made and although it taste quite nice but errr..appearance wise..HAHA..but its a really fun experience! :) oh oh and i finally found someone who loves milo with raw egg and that is bryson's brother, bradley! cause like all of my friends find it gross but in a way its my family's tradition so i love it! :) haha so overall we've been quite slack though..and i still feel really bad that i kinda abandoned them..but they are very nice.. which makes it even worse..so thanks to bryson yixian and rafael! :) sry to ps you guys! everything would be fine as long as its in God's hands! :) oh and i went to watch the spy next door which is pretty nice la..then i went to meet grace and ya and i just really wanna thank God for grace, her acceptance and her love which encourages me :)
i somewhat dunno what can make me see, what can make me understand. i guess, I don't assurance from man when I already have security in God :)
lengshan; inferior
sat!
ok went out with joanne to buy the awesome cap for josh! haha and we looked really cute with yeah..oh well haha then we went to cine to buy josh's cap which is branded ok..ok then we went to charlene's house and joanne and i made a total embarrassing scene on the bus and it was totally hilarious!! HAHA ok i think only we would laugh..cause we are super retarded, oh btw joanne is retard and i am retarded! cause my cell girl told me that retarded is the past tense of retard so i was a retard but now joanne is! haha i can expect unexpected things when i am with her haha! ok then we celebrated josh's birthday! and i think i am super smart! cause to surprise josh i decided to do a pair prayer so that when josh closed his eyes to pray then we can off all the lights and sing happy birthday to him!! oh but in the end thank God he offered to go toilet, oh well not offered but he did went toilet so we hurry rush everything and ta da!! happy birthday to dear josh who just turned twenty! :)HAHAHA i just got this thing about turning twenty haha which isn't very publishable haha..what kind of word..HAHA
sun!
woke up super early to go for ballet performance which turns out that the audience is probably about less than thirty? so pathetic.. :( oh and the MC is some superstar but dunno his name..and i just realise what kinda style i like!! HAHA :) hehehehe oh well, ok then went for service halfway! ok and then bryson and i set off from g1 to meet yixian and rafael and ate subway my fav love it to the max! :) oh and i like working with the three of them cause we realise that we are actually DISC! like yixian is a D, I am an I, rafael is an S and bryson is a C! so cool right! haha and sometimes its like really funny working with them! like many things happen on mon at bryson's house!
mon!
cause like we would laugh at rafael's lousy hokkien HAHAHAHA pig's trotters! and laugh at how super duper neat bryson is! and yixian's intelligence in which she said that she's born with it! HAHA..ok i guess alot of inside joke..oh well, they are just a super nice bunch of awesome ppl! :)oh and bryson's house is really cool and the cool thing is also of the paintings in his house that amazes rafael and bryson's super cute jack russell called blank-co! and we tried the bubble tea that we made and although it taste quite nice but errr..appearance wise..HAHA..but its a really fun experience! :) oh oh and i finally found someone who loves milo with raw egg and that is bryson's brother, bradley! cause like all of my friends find it gross but in a way its my family's tradition so i love it! :) haha so overall we've been quite slack though..and i still feel really bad that i kinda abandoned them..but they are very nice.. which makes it even worse..so thanks to bryson yixian and rafael! :) sry to ps you guys! everything would be fine as long as its in God's hands! :) oh and i went to watch the spy next door which is pretty nice la..then i went to meet grace and ya and i just really wanna thank God for grace, her acceptance and her love which encourages me :)
i somewhat dunno what can make me see, what can make me understand. i guess, I don't assurance from man when I already have security in God :)
lengshan; inferior
Friday, January 15, 2010
quotes since dunno when..
oh anyway i didn't know that God can actually speak to me when i make my own notes about the verses that i should be memorising, amazing uh? yeah God is! :)one thing that i learned today from our devotion time is that faith and believe is different..like i believe in you but i might not have the faith in you yeah?
=there're many gamblers for the world, but are the gamblers for God as many?
=we would wanna build a church without walls
=it takes maturity to thrash issues out and take time to resolve the situation
=be mature and watch your boundaries when in conflict
=grace is a gift from God, faith is a choice
=anointing is being empowered by God, to accomplish God's work according to His will. its a God to you, then to God thing. out willingness is not a necessity cause it is God who will move people
=forgo something now, achieve better things, and always ask, does it go inline with your vision statement?
=make decisions to fine-tune your gifts from God
=busy is not = to effectiveness
=things which matter most must never be at the mercy of things which matter least
=realistic goals -> should be not out of sight, but should also be abit out of sight to stretch yourself
=even making the effort to go out of your comfort zone feels like a new person
=mentoring is not words of advice or anything else but its purpose is to point them back to Christ
=Messiah is Jesus (and not Jesus is the Messiah)
=to a Christian, the word is our life
=when you are left alone, take it that God wants to be alone with you
=2 Cor 6:4-10 -> Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.
=I'd rather love them to Heaven than scare them out of Hell (quoted by joey)
=don't give God your excesses, but give Him your first fruits (quoted by joey)
hahahahahahahahahaha though he said real cool stuff BUT his hall of FAME became FRAME and FLAME! hahahahahahahahaha!yeah those are really cool stuff.......hahaha
=there're many gamblers for the world, but are the gamblers for God as many?
=we would wanna build a church without walls
=it takes maturity to thrash issues out and take time to resolve the situation
=be mature and watch your boundaries when in conflict
=grace is a gift from God, faith is a choice
=anointing is being empowered by God, to accomplish God's work according to His will. its a God to you, then to God thing. out willingness is not a necessity cause it is God who will move people
=forgo something now, achieve better things, and always ask, does it go inline with your vision statement?
=make decisions to fine-tune your gifts from God
=busy is not = to effectiveness
=things which matter most must never be at the mercy of things which matter least
=realistic goals -> should be not out of sight, but should also be abit out of sight to stretch yourself
=even making the effort to go out of your comfort zone feels like a new person
=mentoring is not words of advice or anything else but its purpose is to point them back to Christ
=Messiah is Jesus (and not Jesus is the Messiah)
=to a Christian, the word is our life
=when you are left alone, take it that God wants to be alone with you
=2 Cor 6:4-10 -> Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.
=I'd rather love them to Heaven than scare them out of Hell (quoted by joey)
=don't give God your excesses, but give Him your first fruits (quoted by joey)
hahahahahahahahahaha though he said real cool stuff BUT his hall of FAME became FRAME and FLAME! hahahahahahahahaha!yeah those are really cool stuff.......hahaha
love more people, love people more :)
arghhhh this is the day this is the day that the Lord has made!
today is so full of ups and downs! iphone really rock anyway..i want one..
ok contact work rocks today! yeah this is the best day of contact work out of the three!
hmmm firstly, i was really upset by the two real quest guys..especially one cause he did it again, but i just need time to let it go away and cannot made the decision to forgive on the spot..yeah..
ok then it was contact work! worked with bryson and its really fun working with him cause we shared about our families, ok his family actually and realise that he has a very interesting family background hahaha..his grandma's eating and his grandpa's eating otah..hahahahahahaha..ok then we had REAL talk and it really motivates..:)
so everything that is boiling inside both of us has finally been released and i am really glad!! like i also got to know more about ya and myself and know God's mission for me or in a way my hurdle at this stage of my life right now..:) thrash everything out, though half settled but its really really very relaxed and i really thank God for it.. >< yeah its really amazing how God watches over both of us and thank God for the middlemen as well.. :) one of the main thing that we've came up just now was for example someone is trying very hard not to think about certain thing, yet, "you are thinking about the thing which you yourself dont wanna think about, so you are actually thinking about it!" makes alot of sense right! yeah we came up with it and hahahaha we're very proud of it yeah!! :)and i also learned that to help someone or give advice, one of the most crucial things is to understand how are they feeling first, let them know that you understand how they feel and then give them advice..also, i should start to love more people and love people more, start loving the people whom i kinda dislike now and love the people whom are already very dear to me! yeah :)
also, i am very happy to be out with honeypi on tues night like though i was very very tired after ballet but i am quite glad that we went out! went to burger king and then udders to eat mao shan wang ice cream haha when we are both having cough and sore throat but neh mind la.. ok then we decided to go chinese garden de garden there to feed fish but it was about 9 plus going 10 already..but we just went ahead to buy bread and walked over..haha and honeypi was like ok going there would be about 800 metres! haha so accurate la she..haha so in the dark night we two girls just walked and then suddenly!! we heard this very strange noise like super weird then we got really really very scared...so then after that we got so scared that we turned around and ran like crazy!!! its super scary can that sound! hahahahahaha its so super retarded la..ok then we went to the playground in the garden which is very very nice! there's this trapeline thing which has puddles of water cause of the previous rain but then we not scared dirty so we just swept or kick the water off and then jumped and jumped and jumped! the water made really very nice effect from our jumping! haha..then ok due to nature, i did one of the funniest thing but quite embarrassed thing in my life hahahahahahaha..ok then we went to sit the tyres which are actually swings and its really fun! i think swinging tyres are more fun than the usual one..so we talked for pretty long and then took retarded pictures which oh well, revealed quite alot of stuff uh! HAHA..ok overall its a fun night! :)i am so looking forward to tmr!! when i think everything is settled, everyone is forgiving and forgiven..everyone is missing and seeing one another finally! yay the g2 ppl are back and i really miss my hi-5 buddy! haha everyone is happy yayyy..awesome awesome! thank God for the talk! love you God for everything! :)
lengshan; super happy!! :)
today is so full of ups and downs! iphone really rock anyway..i want one..
ok contact work rocks today! yeah this is the best day of contact work out of the three!
hmmm firstly, i was really upset by the two real quest guys..especially one cause he did it again, but i just need time to let it go away and cannot made the decision to forgive on the spot..yeah..
ok then it was contact work! worked with bryson and its really fun working with him cause we shared about our families, ok his family actually and realise that he has a very interesting family background hahaha..his grandma's eating and his grandpa's eating otah..hahahahahahaha..ok then we had REAL talk and it really motivates..:)
so everything that is boiling inside both of us has finally been released and i am really glad!! like i also got to know more about ya and myself and know God's mission for me or in a way my hurdle at this stage of my life right now..:) thrash everything out, though half settled but its really really very relaxed and i really thank God for it.. >< yeah its really amazing how God watches over both of us and thank God for the middlemen as well.. :) one of the main thing that we've came up just now was for example someone is trying very hard not to think about certain thing, yet, "you are thinking about the thing which you yourself dont wanna think about, so you are actually thinking about it!" makes alot of sense right! yeah we came up with it and hahahaha we're very proud of it yeah!! :)and i also learned that to help someone or give advice, one of the most crucial things is to understand how are they feeling first, let them know that you understand how they feel and then give them advice..also, i should start to love more people and love people more, start loving the people whom i kinda dislike now and love the people whom are already very dear to me! yeah :)
also, i am very happy to be out with honeypi on tues night like though i was very very tired after ballet but i am quite glad that we went out! went to burger king and then udders to eat mao shan wang ice cream haha when we are both having cough and sore throat but neh mind la.. ok then we decided to go chinese garden de garden there to feed fish but it was about 9 plus going 10 already..but we just went ahead to buy bread and walked over..haha and honeypi was like ok going there would be about 800 metres! haha so accurate la she..haha so in the dark night we two girls just walked and then suddenly!! we heard this very strange noise like super weird then we got really really very scared...so then after that we got so scared that we turned around and ran like crazy!!! its super scary can that sound! hahahahahaha its so super retarded la..ok then we went to the playground in the garden which is very very nice! there's this trapeline thing which has puddles of water cause of the previous rain but then we not scared dirty so we just swept or kick the water off and then jumped and jumped and jumped! the water made really very nice effect from our jumping! haha..then ok due to nature, i did one of the funniest thing but quite embarrassed thing in my life hahahahahahaha..ok then we went to sit the tyres which are actually swings and its really fun! i think swinging tyres are more fun than the usual one..so we talked for pretty long and then took retarded pictures which oh well, revealed quite alot of stuff uh! HAHA..ok overall its a fun night! :)i am so looking forward to tmr!! when i think everything is settled, everyone is forgiving and forgiven..everyone is missing and seeing one another finally! yay the g2 ppl are back and i really miss my hi-5 buddy! haha everyone is happy yayyy..awesome awesome! thank God for the talk! love you God for everything! :)
lengshan; super happy!! :)
Monday, January 11, 2010
to joanne and you..
oh man oh man oh man! i'm very happy today! trillion things happen today and i am so thankful for it.. >< oh but first a brief summary about my week apart from me being sick, i have got lots of REAL stuff to share and LAUGH haha..ok here it goes!
5th January 2010! Tue! :) REAL work officially started and dunno why just got this tingly feeling in me which i can still rmb..so the day started off with staff devotion..pretty cool cause where in the workplace would you have people gathered together to worship God, learn about God and pray apart from God's house? maybe have la..but i think this is very nice..so after that its pretty much admin stuff.. and hahahahahaha here comes the laughter!! ok joey told us many things about mission trips and stuff...then he mention about us having a REAL video for memories so you need a camera to capture everything right? and guess what he said, bring CAMELAS just in case! hahahaha ok next number two. ok this one is pretty random, he is supposed to say BASICALLY but ended up saying BASIGULUI! its like basic-how-much-money(in hokkien)..hahaha oh no..i think joey is going to kill me soon..haha ok last one already! now the REAL team has a favourite colour and that is BLEEN! according to joey, its the mixture of blue and green! haha he's supposed to say blue, green but connected them together to become bleen! haha he's so funny! yeah ok the day ended off with REAL talk and then we went back home yup!
7th January 2010! Thu! :)
led worship with kah sheng and i love my worship schedule cause its yellow!! to all those who picked yellow, hey guys, you have just made a wise decision yayyy.. oh oh..i chose the song "You Alone" as one of the worship song and i am going to share how this song came about..at first, kah sheng chose the song heart of worship so i thought it over and think about the meaning of this song and then i thought that probably the condition of our "heart" is sth which God wants me to think about..so i flipped my song book to search for songs that touched upon our heart condition..while i was flipping my youngest cousin drea dear was beside me singing songs of her own..then suddenly i thought of this particular song but i only know the chorus, i dunno the title or verse at all..so i decided to ask her so i sang for her that portion but turns out that she dunno also..so i was like "hmmm okay lor..just continue thinking".. just then when i flipped to the next page there in front of me was "You Alone"! i was shocked beyond words and my cousin was too shocked! yeah..amazing.. :) then joey conducted the workshop on charting goals and it seems that there are so many things to do even when it comes to planning goals.. and one part of it is to first look at the different roles that you are playing to kick start the charting of goals..i listed my top five roles down and to the best of my ability, i would try to be a good cell mentor, best friend, daughter and sister and saltshaker.. yeah..its hard but will try... :)
8th January 2010! Fri! :)
5th January 2010! Tue! :) REAL work officially started and dunno why just got this tingly feeling in me which i can still rmb..so the day started off with staff devotion..pretty cool cause where in the workplace would you have people gathered together to worship God, learn about God and pray apart from God's house? maybe have la..but i think this is very nice..so after that its pretty much admin stuff.. and hahahahahaha here comes the laughter!! ok joey told us many things about mission trips and stuff...then he mention about us having a REAL video for memories so you need a camera to capture everything right? and guess what he said, bring CAMELAS just in case! hahahaha ok next number two. ok this one is pretty random, he is supposed to say BASICALLY but ended up saying BASIGULUI! its like basic-how-much-money(in hokkien)..hahaha oh no..i think joey is going to kill me soon..haha ok last one already! now the REAL team has a favourite colour and that is BLEEN! according to joey, its the mixture of blue and green! haha he's supposed to say blue, green but connected them together to become bleen! haha he's so funny! yeah ok the day ended off with REAL talk and then we went back home yup!
7th January 2010! Thu! :)
led worship with kah sheng and i love my worship schedule cause its yellow!! to all those who picked yellow, hey guys, you have just made a wise decision yayyy.. oh oh..i chose the song "You Alone" as one of the worship song and i am going to share how this song came about..at first, kah sheng chose the song heart of worship so i thought it over and think about the meaning of this song and then i thought that probably the condition of our "heart" is sth which God wants me to think about..so i flipped my song book to search for songs that touched upon our heart condition..while i was flipping my youngest cousin drea dear was beside me singing songs of her own..then suddenly i thought of this particular song but i only know the chorus, i dunno the title or verse at all..so i decided to ask her so i sang for her that portion but turns out that she dunno also..so i was like "hmmm okay lor..just continue thinking".. just then when i flipped to the next page there in front of me was "You Alone"! i was shocked beyond words and my cousin was too shocked! yeah..amazing.. :) then joey conducted the workshop on charting goals and it seems that there are so many things to do even when it comes to planning goals.. and one part of it is to first look at the different roles that you are playing to kick start the charting of goals..i listed my top five roles down and to the best of my ability, i would try to be a good cell mentor, best friend, daughter and sister and saltshaker.. yeah..its hard but will try... :)
8th January 2010! Fri! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH GONG! =P
firstly, we had workshop by pastor kuang ming on more about studying and analysing the Word which is quite chim for me..so shows that i cannot be a bible scholar..so hard lor..yeah then pastor cuixian gave us some role-playing for our upcoming CW and bryson, gao min, nigel and samuel is very funny hahaha! oh and there's a very funny story about kah sheng and my conversation..ok at first i was just playing with the hole-puncher..then dunno what kah sheng said to tease me, i was like,"you say one more time, i would.." i was looking straight at his face then i was thinking what should i say.. then i said,"i would hole-punch your nose!" and you know what's his response? "punch la..then like that i can breathe better!!" hahahahaha i laughed until i wanna cry already!!! HAHAHAHAHA ok its super funny to me.. hahahaha..ok ok oh well, then there's pnp at night.. but before that i went to cell dinner with my cell girls and elo cause she need to talk to me about some stuff...and my very dear sweet awesome girl tiffy bought me pi pa gao!!! she's really dear to me.. ><
oh here's the REAL pledge!!
Unrefined but now redeemed, we stand firm in Christ our Lord.
United as one in the body of Christ, we will:
Unashamedly and unceasingly seek the lost,
Zealously be rooted in God's word,
Passionately strive for authenticity in worship,
Earnestly live a lifestyle of servanthood, and
Actively account to one another for character building.
We aspire to cement a legacy for God by being exemplary in our speech and conduct.
We dedicate our lives to Christ and pledge our commitment to the REAL programme!
yeah i think this pledge is really well written! and i love it!! :)
11th January 2010! Mon! :)
in the afternoon, joanne and elsa came to my house and we cooked maggi mee or aka mee sua cause we love soggy noodles and we kinda overcooked until like mee sua!! haha..and the interesting thing is that we each had an egg BUT we wanted them differently! i wanted it dispersed, joanne wanted it remain intact while elsa wanted it half-boiled! so in the end my egg went in first, then we had to cover joanne's full egg with noodles for it to hurry get cooked then lastly elsa's! haha its really fun! oh and joanne is so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really dunno what to say already...she just so rock...yayyyyyy!!! oh and thanks for the friendship band..you will be remembered when i wear my shoes..haha kidding la..you will be remembered whenever someone call or when a message comes.. ><
hey i am really happy today thks..loves you pinky promises! and i really think i am being very very unfair..i really dunno how to make it up to you..just wanna know that i am seriously worried about the nine gen thing and i really want it out of your sight..really really..yeah..will always be praying for you..both of us will be there for you..
lengshan; why can't i?
oh here's the REAL pledge!!
Unrefined but now redeemed, we stand firm in Christ our Lord.
United as one in the body of Christ, we will:
Unashamedly and unceasingly seek the lost,
Zealously be rooted in God's word,
Passionately strive for authenticity in worship,
Earnestly live a lifestyle of servanthood, and
Actively account to one another for character building.
We aspire to cement a legacy for God by being exemplary in our speech and conduct.
We dedicate our lives to Christ and pledge our commitment to the REAL programme!
yeah i think this pledge is really well written! and i love it!! :)
11th January 2010! Mon! :)
in the afternoon, joanne and elsa came to my house and we cooked maggi mee or aka mee sua cause we love soggy noodles and we kinda overcooked until like mee sua!! haha..and the interesting thing is that we each had an egg BUT we wanted them differently! i wanted it dispersed, joanne wanted it remain intact while elsa wanted it half-boiled! so in the end my egg went in first, then we had to cover joanne's full egg with noodles for it to hurry get cooked then lastly elsa's! haha its really fun! oh and joanne is so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really dunno what to say already...she just so rock...yayyyyyy!!! oh and thanks for the friendship band..you will be remembered when i wear my shoes..haha kidding la..you will be remembered whenever someone call or when a message comes.. ><
hey i am really happy today thks..loves you pinky promises! and i really think i am being very very unfair..i really dunno how to make it up to you..just wanna know that i am seriously worried about the nine gen thing and i really want it out of your sight..really really..yeah..will always be praying for you..both of us will be there for you..
lengshan; why can't i?
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
sick but still going
woke up with a worse sore throat even though i ate 2 apples yesterday..eh, so an apple a day keeps the doctor away? not in my case then cause i had to see my doctor today..head is like almost bursting and i feel pain even when someone touch me gently. i thought i wouldn't fall sick so easily but i think due to insufficient sleep generated for days thats why..see not only sleeping early but sleeping at the right time is crucial to our bodies! haha quoted from elsa.. my doctor initially gave me two days mc for today and tmr but i really have to go for REAL tmr..so she adviced me if my fever isn't down i should not be going..just in case i spread my illness..its some viral infection she said, grace got it right! hahaha she so can become a doctor! many unexpected things pop up and i am just so super glad! when i feel alittle more energetic in the afternoon i came online and i am really happy to see people asking how am i feeling like the REAL people and kenneth and elo, love them so so dearly..! and aaron creating the saltshakers group in fb! as well as honeypi assuring me..awww..it really cheers me up even though i was quite tired about preparing stuff for REAL and SHASH due to my headache..my cousins came tonight to stay and they are one of the best gift that God has given me cause each one of them are just so dear to me.. :) i am extremely thankful that i have finish coordinating my shash particulars cause its really hard..i didn't know manz..so thanks tiffy for doing it last year! now i know how tough it is..and so obviously didn't go for REAL today..heard they did vision casting and i wasn't there.. :( but thank God manage to finish preparing for worship..yayyyy!!! i guess doing God's work like the real and shash stuff and the little "hey how are you feeling" cares are the ones that kept me going and i really thank God for them! :)
lengshan; healthier me tmr! :)
lengshan; healthier me tmr! :)
Monday, January 4, 2010
REAL lock-in camp! :)
yeah yeah yeah so excited! haha excited to even write everything about REAL camp, even though its really really long and probably i might spend hours typing it haha..honestly i was afraid of going even for the camp cause of various reasons. lock-in camp itself already sounds pretty scary and also i am afraid that i cannot clique well with the people cause i dunno most of them.. so yeah, totally went in with fear, but thank God i came out with thankfulness to the Lord :) the REAL leaders are joey, huiyi, samantha, meiyin, mel fam and michael while the REAL people are ya, min min, tiffany, yixian, shalini, zhiying, bryson, nigel, joshua, ian, samuel, jialiang, kah sheng, rafael and me!
28th december 2009 :)
first day! reach church just on time thank God. and we are supposed to take a photo with very weird expressions like sleepy or like you've just won 1 million dollars or about to sneeze (that was mine). it turned out really funny haha!! next we played an icebreaker game and then were splited up into three groups (ti-mo-thy) which is pretty cool. my group members are min min, nigel, josh and shalini! they are really awesome ppl who makes me really comfortable even the very first day. :) there is also a points system which is measured in terms of millions and poor josh got 70 millions deducted cause he was late, its pretty funny actually cause every now and then he would try to redeem himself HAHA..at the very beginning joey started off really serious this camp and set out ten commandments for this camp. then it got less tense when we had to settle money and meals issue. each group is given 50 bucks each to buy stuff to cook for our own meals so we decided to combine and plan out every meal and the ingredients for 3 breakfasts, 3 lunch and 3 dinner, then my group went to supermarket while the rest went to wet market to buy the individual ingredients. its like the first time i am doing such stuff and the feeling of us travelling to and fro church and within the supermarket was such an awesome experience! sam was with us cause she's our group leader and we talked laughed and really gotten to know one another! they are really awesome ppl manz. :) ok then the moment we reached church we just started cooking and brillant josh start his thing-cook! haha cooking is seriously his thing and we would be his workers if one day he open a restaurant! i also started to label the food that we bought for example, REAL bread, REAL soya sauce, REAL noodles, REAL peanut butter, REAL drinks and etc! hahaha sounds funny right.. of course its REAL la.. but in a way its also correct hahaha.. i also think i am quite smart to have thought of this!! HAHA..humility lengshan humility.. :) then we cooked fried rice and it smelled so good! like you can smell it a thousand miles you know! it taste great and really really good. thank the Lord for josh the cook! :) ok after the meal we had siesta in which we did much reflections and the expectations that we wanted for this camp and then we shared among our small group. oh and my group is TI (提)! :) next pastor kuang ming taught us about reading the Bible intelligently. he included various steps to read the bible (read, record and reflect) and the ten strategies to first-rate reading (read thoughtfully, repeatedly, patiently, selectively, prayerfully, imaginatively, meditatively, purposefully, acquisitively and telescopically) its really really very practical and i gained quite alot from it! :) the next happening thing is REAL exam, ok its quite contradicting cause its not real but its REAL haha.. the questions are mostly based on the things about the bible and honestly its quite tough leh.. haha..this shows that i'm really bad at the word.. and meiyin is super funny cause she acted as the mdm lim and she has the ah ma style which is really funny!!! hahaha..ok then david goh came to lead worship for us in the evening, so sweet of him! thank God for david! *claps claps!* :) and the sermon was preached by pastor gary and he is really very engaging and enthusiastic and carried his message across really well. one of the most important thing that i have learned from him and that its a really good reminder is this. [people usually say "I love you because...". but God says "I love you in spite of..."] isn't that very very sweet..hopefully this would be a really good reminder and reassurance of the times when we thought that God has abandoned us or He don't love us, that He has never stop loving us cause He is love, pure love. >< oh if people were to ask me when are the times i felt God, it was during the altar calls of this camp. for this evening service, i was assured by God that i should be reading His word cause it would help me in my daily walk with God and so i would not let my lack of the bible knowledge hinder my future encounters with Him. :) i also learned that i should not based everything on feelings cause what if my mood is bad and i dont feel God? doesn't mean He is not there, knowledge of His love is more important and is already very reassuring.. :) awesome awesome its the end of the first day! :)
29th december 2009 :)
we woke up at 5.30 and went to ECP via two church buses! so cool so cool! we then read and mediate on Lamentations 3 and 1 Tim and at the same time watch the sunrise! oh i didn't hold much hope to see the sunrise cause i only managed to watch the sunrise once out of five in ECP but thank God He allowed us to watch it! ok sunrise was an amazing sight but i think God's revelation to me surpasses the sunrise..He spoke to me through the waves. i learned that He is like the waves on the beach, they always come, they never stop and so is God's unfailing love. God's temper is also like the waves, sometimes big waves, high waves, strong waves, others low waves, gentle waves. as much as He may be unpredictable but He is always there and He also loves us. when we get too busy with our lives, the sound of waves kinda backed down. my main take away from just looking and listening to His creation is that our hectic life is like earphones which cover our ears but when we take them off and listen to His voice, sound of never-ending waves, we would know that God is forever faithful and the word forever can only be used for Him. :) next we have a small worship led by samantha and God reminded me how amazing Jesus is to carry not only His cross but also the world's cross. without Jesus, we might not be able to face God. then, minyang's words rang in my mind that when we sin again, we are crucifying Him on the cross again. we often do not remember what Jesus had done, it is so basic to give thanks yet it is so necessary. thank God for this reminder. :) next, pastor cuixian taught us the importance of knowing our and others' personalities Uniquely You. it can be categorised into DISC which is almost like the choleric, sanguine, phlegmatic and melancholic respectively. i was IS but my D start to appear.. actually i used not to like D character but at the end of this camp i realised that they are the ones who helped to get the stuff done which then leads to the games we played next! before the games, there is a re-shuffling of the groups and only at the end then we know that we are being splited into our DISC! so my second group is MO(摩) and my group mates are yixian, zhiying, samuel and ian! we are all sanguines and more or less pretty much choleric..ok so since we have three groups, each group played each game for 20 mins. the games are memory bible verse, then the chairs crocodile game and then the treasure hunt. for us we did the memory verse first and the girls would have to squat while the guys in pumping position and at the same time, we have to send one person up to level 4 to memorise a bible verse which is about two to three sentences long then come down to level one carpark there to recite it..its really long and the time is really short..oh but my verse is pretty short and its from Romans 8:26-In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. yeah and thank God that i got it right! :) ok next was the crocodile crossing game! we have a normal queue, samuel goes first, followed by yixian, then zhiying, me and lastly ian.. and ian is super funny!! cause in a way.. all of us have to have abit of physical contact and ian so funny! he like very scared to touch us girls cause he believes nan nu shou shou bu qing! haha he's so funny la but its also sth which i am very impressed! :) then for treasure hunt, michael really makes us run like crazy! we climbed to level five then to level one then to level four for the clues and its really tiring but i think cause all of us are very motivated to complete the mission so we ran all the way!! and thanks to everyone in my group, we found six out of ten clues!! awesome awesome love mo mo mo!! :) after the games, we head off to dinner and seriously EVERY meal rocks! joel came to lead worship for us thank God for him *claps claps!* this sermon was preached by pastor simon and the main take away from him is that we cannot be too quick to judge cause if not it will become a tool to destroy the church, God's family. i commited kor and mummy into God's hands during altar call and that i believe God loves them more than i do, but somehow, this is my prayer every year and that i think i have always use my own strength to save them, so it is really hard to let go cause i am a very impatient person. yeah, then after service, joey sat all of us down to talk about how we feel. he said that he was disappointed with us and that he wanted us to be authentic with each other and he encouraged us to confront each other solely because we want the person to grow. so in short, i learned that confrontation is not = to conflict and in fact, confrontation may be a tool to build relationships instead of bottling up everything. so the day ended with all the confessions, it ended well, really well.. :)
30th december 2009 :)
the day began really dark cause we were awoken at 3 to go to changi!! haha its really really early and joey urged us not to sleep in the bus, so i had to make sure the strong wind was blowing in my face so that i won't have to sleep. but i thank God that He gave me this idea to stay awake if not i wouldn't have treasured and prayed for the people whom was once close and dear to me. on the way to changi, we went past Bethel, my previous church. it was the church that i said my first sinner's prayer, it was the church that i found peace from God, it was the church that everyone embraced everyone, it was the church that i first felt God's presence, it was the church that i first felt that everyone was equal and there was no age gap, it was the church where i started my walk with God faithfully, it was the church that i first had passion for God, it was the church that i went to church every single day be it for prayer meetings or workshops or cell. i miss them alot and i miss the bond that we girls have. its just so unique :) alrighty next comes the reading of God's word and reflections time.. i was so sleepy and kept walking up and down to prevent myself from sleeping..we were to read job 38-42 and psalm 50. then i thought of the song,"God will make a way" which has the words "Heaven and earth will fade, but His word will still remains, He will do something new today". :) then for breakfast!! joey brought us to eat tau hui!!! the most famous tau hui is in geylang and seriously the tau hui is so soft! its really nice, must go back eat again! :) after we head back to g1, pastor cuixian explained to us further about our personalities and how should we make use of our differences or similarities to work as a team! its really really good! :) then we had workshop conducted by joey on how to be authentic. and i truly learned alot cause most of the times i am quite confused whether some of my actions come from my heart or i am faking them..hmmm.. oh well.. ok oh slightly before the workshop started, ian's mummy came into the room and bought for us two pandan cakes. she's so sweet! but the most amazing thing about her is that she, in front of all of us, told ian that she missed her boy. her tone sounds sad and in her teary eyes, i can tell that she really misses him.. thats so real.. so genuine..joey also intro to us a song called "and can it be" by church of rhythm and it really spoke to me telling me to really be myself, esp in front of God cause in front of Him, you cannot hide and there's nothing to hide.. :) next we played the cocoon game whereby we would have to be like a caterpillar and wriggle to our destination using the level 4 corridor..and the guys cheered a very unique cheer for us! its really funny and very cute! oh well.. but i forgot already haha.. and meiyin is super funny cause she made us do super funny actions! HAHA..some of us are blindfolded and we would have to play or run by ear, by our friend's instructions and encouragements..oh and my name is cocoon leng! haha so funny can! then was dinner time and my group cooked dinner! it was really good cause i learned from pastor cuixian how to fry luncheon meat and cooked fishball noodles! hahaha if i dont have job i think i can be a fishball noodle aunty, haha probably *meepok aunty* hor? ") haha.. then sister becky came to preach about how to become a man or woman of God and i find that she's really very engaging cause she would ask the audience questions and really get to know us.. :) to summarise, the four main ways to become a woman of God is to first flee from evil, pursue Godly virtues, fight for faith and lastly encourage others to do likewise! of course these aren't all but i feel its like a skeleton! :) again, the altar call is really amazing.. the sermon didn't really spoke to me but i prayed for people anyway.. so when i prayed for jialiang i have no idea what i said but God again reminded me of how small and insignificant we are yet He has given, poured and forgave although we broke His heart countless of times..its because of His love that so overwhelms us, and made us so drawn to Him.. its so amazing how God reminded me of humility.. :) then samantha prayed for me to have a leap of faith about my future and then joey gave me a word that i should let go of myself and let God take control! how they are linked! i'm so grateful that God had used people to speak to me..give thanks to the Lord.. :) that night, MO shared about what God had revealed to us and amazingly, one of us shared one of the deepest hurts with us and i'm really thankful for it.. :) thanks thanks cause you've made the first step.. :) its also cool how the "Is" interact with one another..the reason why we always do not complete our sharing is because we talked, shared and gave our own opinions a lot.. it is definitely not a bad thing cause i am glad that i managed to hear what everyone has to say.. :) i am finally seeing how advantageous of our different personalities. we slept really late at night cause we were given papers to write encouraging notes to one another..its also the last night that ya, min min and i can get to sleep together.. its really nice knowing gao min cause she's a really nice person.. very very nice.. when we were writing, i forgotten what exactly we said but nicole's reply was "cause i am an S (S in DISC) mah!" then both gao min and i started laughing like CRAZY!! we just cannot stop laughing!!! it got so bad that i had to leave the room cause lack of oxygen!!!! hahahahahaha!!!!! its super funny!!! its really an awesome night..with the two of them... love them lots lots...!! :)
31st december 2009 :)
we got to wake up later this time since we slept late last night and then had debrief and went head off for leaders retreat!! :)
its a really unique and different camp from the rest of the camps that i have been..not only because everyone loves God but also i was being taught to be REAL with everyone and this is something which is not present in other camps..i have gotten to know everyone and really cannot wait to continue the REAL journey with them! :)
throughout this camp i have learned super a lot of things and these are the things which struck me so here they are!
-in the midst of seriousness, there is still God's love
-1 Tim 4:12===setting example in love, speech, faith and purity
-when you have favour in God's eyes, you'll naturally gain favour in man
-potential is something which you cannot see, its a leap of faith
-failures mould your character which God has pre-destined
-God says,"I love you in spite of..."
-You need to know God's word for yourself so start reading yourself
-when you have a conflict, pray, ask God for wisdom, look for the right time
-when you worship, emotional worship and heart-felt worship is different. emotional is you purposely get into the feeling, but heart-felt is really thinking of the lyrics and thinking about God and what He has done in your life
-God is like the waves. hectic life is like the earphones covering our ears. take them off and you can hear God. God is always there, forever faithful
-the scenery changes, but God's glory remains
-it is not the God we wants, but the God who is
-because God is always the same, never lies, never changes, thats why we are drawn to Him
-don't make decisions on an impulse when you have the Holy Spirit, think twice
-we're still unique even though we're classified, so we can be changed (spirit controlled)
-God wants us to be involved in His plan as His partner
-our response and actions may affect God's decisions so we're very precious to Him
-we cannot change our personalty but we can change our attitude
-if you know everything, then what is faith for?
-if the question that you ask God answered, then it would be for your spirit growth
-don't underestimate the telling of a painful truth which you never know, might touch the core
-things should be used, people should be loved
-ministry=people
-we're like mirrors for one another, make one another holy, not happy
-don't get right before going to God but go to God to get right
-when you're real (authentic), you will be free
-be transformed by the renewal of your mind
-we have to run to God and be comfort by Him, then run to friends. if people run to you, you better run to God, if not they may think that you are god
-anything that you love is prioritise above God have to be brought to question
-its easy to get through a tough time when you know the reason why, but can you still trust God when you dunno the reason?
-the amount you read is not =applying in your lifestyle
-always remember your encounters with God
-it is often at the altar that we make decisions because it is where God's presence is real and that this decision is God-centred
-humbling ourselves before man is humiliating, but humbling ourselves before God is a liberation
-confrontation builds people's spiritual growth
-if you are ready, you are good. its not if you are good, you are ready
-the best approach through understanding people is to be open-minded
-when you are conscious of it and makes an effort, you will then grow
-set yourself apart by being humble and teachable
lengshan; thank God for REAL :)
28th december 2009 :)
first day! reach church just on time thank God. and we are supposed to take a photo with very weird expressions like sleepy or like you've just won 1 million dollars or about to sneeze (that was mine). it turned out really funny haha!! next we played an icebreaker game and then were splited up into three groups (ti-mo-thy) which is pretty cool. my group members are min min, nigel, josh and shalini! they are really awesome ppl who makes me really comfortable even the very first day. :) there is also a points system which is measured in terms of millions and poor josh got 70 millions deducted cause he was late, its pretty funny actually cause every now and then he would try to redeem himself HAHA..at the very beginning joey started off really serious this camp and set out ten commandments for this camp. then it got less tense when we had to settle money and meals issue. each group is given 50 bucks each to buy stuff to cook for our own meals so we decided to combine and plan out every meal and the ingredients for 3 breakfasts, 3 lunch and 3 dinner, then my group went to supermarket while the rest went to wet market to buy the individual ingredients. its like the first time i am doing such stuff and the feeling of us travelling to and fro church and within the supermarket was such an awesome experience! sam was with us cause she's our group leader and we talked laughed and really gotten to know one another! they are really awesome ppl manz. :) ok then the moment we reached church we just started cooking and brillant josh start his thing-cook! haha cooking is seriously his thing and we would be his workers if one day he open a restaurant! i also started to label the food that we bought for example, REAL bread, REAL soya sauce, REAL noodles, REAL peanut butter, REAL drinks and etc! hahaha sounds funny right.. of course its REAL la.. but in a way its also correct hahaha.. i also think i am quite smart to have thought of this!! HAHA..humility lengshan humility.. :) then we cooked fried rice and it smelled so good! like you can smell it a thousand miles you know! it taste great and really really good. thank the Lord for josh the cook! :) ok after the meal we had siesta in which we did much reflections and the expectations that we wanted for this camp and then we shared among our small group. oh and my group is TI (提)! :) next pastor kuang ming taught us about reading the Bible intelligently. he included various steps to read the bible (read, record and reflect) and the ten strategies to first-rate reading (read thoughtfully, repeatedly, patiently, selectively, prayerfully, imaginatively, meditatively, purposefully, acquisitively and telescopically) its really really very practical and i gained quite alot from it! :) the next happening thing is REAL exam, ok its quite contradicting cause its not real but its REAL haha.. the questions are mostly based on the things about the bible and honestly its quite tough leh.. haha..this shows that i'm really bad at the word.. and meiyin is super funny cause she acted as the mdm lim and she has the ah ma style which is really funny!!! hahaha..ok then david goh came to lead worship for us in the evening, so sweet of him! thank God for david! *claps claps!* :) and the sermon was preached by pastor gary and he is really very engaging and enthusiastic and carried his message across really well. one of the most important thing that i have learned from him and that its a really good reminder is this. [people usually say "I love you because...". but God says "I love you in spite of..."] isn't that very very sweet..hopefully this would be a really good reminder and reassurance of the times when we thought that God has abandoned us or He don't love us, that He has never stop loving us cause He is love, pure love. >< oh if people were to ask me when are the times i felt God, it was during the altar calls of this camp. for this evening service, i was assured by God that i should be reading His word cause it would help me in my daily walk with God and so i would not let my lack of the bible knowledge hinder my future encounters with Him. :) i also learned that i should not based everything on feelings cause what if my mood is bad and i dont feel God? doesn't mean He is not there, knowledge of His love is more important and is already very reassuring.. :) awesome awesome its the end of the first day! :)
29th december 2009 :)
we woke up at 5.30 and went to ECP via two church buses! so cool so cool! we then read and mediate on Lamentations 3 and 1 Tim and at the same time watch the sunrise! oh i didn't hold much hope to see the sunrise cause i only managed to watch the sunrise once out of five in ECP but thank God He allowed us to watch it! ok sunrise was an amazing sight but i think God's revelation to me surpasses the sunrise..He spoke to me through the waves. i learned that He is like the waves on the beach, they always come, they never stop and so is God's unfailing love. God's temper is also like the waves, sometimes big waves, high waves, strong waves, others low waves, gentle waves. as much as He may be unpredictable but He is always there and He also loves us. when we get too busy with our lives, the sound of waves kinda backed down. my main take away from just looking and listening to His creation is that our hectic life is like earphones which cover our ears but when we take them off and listen to His voice, sound of never-ending waves, we would know that God is forever faithful and the word forever can only be used for Him. :) next we have a small worship led by samantha and God reminded me how amazing Jesus is to carry not only His cross but also the world's cross. without Jesus, we might not be able to face God. then, minyang's words rang in my mind that when we sin again, we are crucifying Him on the cross again. we often do not remember what Jesus had done, it is so basic to give thanks yet it is so necessary. thank God for this reminder. :) next, pastor cuixian taught us the importance of knowing our and others' personalities Uniquely You. it can be categorised into DISC which is almost like the choleric, sanguine, phlegmatic and melancholic respectively. i was IS but my D start to appear.. actually i used not to like D character but at the end of this camp i realised that they are the ones who helped to get the stuff done which then leads to the games we played next! before the games, there is a re-shuffling of the groups and only at the end then we know that we are being splited into our DISC! so my second group is MO(摩) and my group mates are yixian, zhiying, samuel and ian! we are all sanguines and more or less pretty much choleric..ok so since we have three groups, each group played each game for 20 mins. the games are memory bible verse, then the chairs crocodile game and then the treasure hunt. for us we did the memory verse first and the girls would have to squat while the guys in pumping position and at the same time, we have to send one person up to level 4 to memorise a bible verse which is about two to three sentences long then come down to level one carpark there to recite it..its really long and the time is really short..oh but my verse is pretty short and its from Romans 8:26-In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. yeah and thank God that i got it right! :) ok next was the crocodile crossing game! we have a normal queue, samuel goes first, followed by yixian, then zhiying, me and lastly ian.. and ian is super funny!! cause in a way.. all of us have to have abit of physical contact and ian so funny! he like very scared to touch us girls cause he believes nan nu shou shou bu qing! haha he's so funny la but its also sth which i am very impressed! :) then for treasure hunt, michael really makes us run like crazy! we climbed to level five then to level one then to level four for the clues and its really tiring but i think cause all of us are very motivated to complete the mission so we ran all the way!! and thanks to everyone in my group, we found six out of ten clues!! awesome awesome love mo mo mo!! :) after the games, we head off to dinner and seriously EVERY meal rocks! joel came to lead worship for us thank God for him *claps claps!* this sermon was preached by pastor simon and the main take away from him is that we cannot be too quick to judge cause if not it will become a tool to destroy the church, God's family. i commited kor and mummy into God's hands during altar call and that i believe God loves them more than i do, but somehow, this is my prayer every year and that i think i have always use my own strength to save them, so it is really hard to let go cause i am a very impatient person. yeah, then after service, joey sat all of us down to talk about how we feel. he said that he was disappointed with us and that he wanted us to be authentic with each other and he encouraged us to confront each other solely because we want the person to grow. so in short, i learned that confrontation is not = to conflict and in fact, confrontation may be a tool to build relationships instead of bottling up everything. so the day ended with all the confessions, it ended well, really well.. :)
30th december 2009 :)
the day began really dark cause we were awoken at 3 to go to changi!! haha its really really early and joey urged us not to sleep in the bus, so i had to make sure the strong wind was blowing in my face so that i won't have to sleep. but i thank God that He gave me this idea to stay awake if not i wouldn't have treasured and prayed for the people whom was once close and dear to me. on the way to changi, we went past Bethel, my previous church. it was the church that i said my first sinner's prayer, it was the church that i found peace from God, it was the church that everyone embraced everyone, it was the church that i first felt God's presence, it was the church that i first felt that everyone was equal and there was no age gap, it was the church where i started my walk with God faithfully, it was the church that i first had passion for God, it was the church that i went to church every single day be it for prayer meetings or workshops or cell. i miss them alot and i miss the bond that we girls have. its just so unique :) alrighty next comes the reading of God's word and reflections time.. i was so sleepy and kept walking up and down to prevent myself from sleeping..we were to read job 38-42 and psalm 50. then i thought of the song,"God will make a way" which has the words "Heaven and earth will fade, but His word will still remains, He will do something new today". :) then for breakfast!! joey brought us to eat tau hui!!! the most famous tau hui is in geylang and seriously the tau hui is so soft! its really nice, must go back eat again! :) after we head back to g1, pastor cuixian explained to us further about our personalities and how should we make use of our differences or similarities to work as a team! its really really good! :) then we had workshop conducted by joey on how to be authentic. and i truly learned alot cause most of the times i am quite confused whether some of my actions come from my heart or i am faking them..hmmm.. oh well.. ok oh slightly before the workshop started, ian's mummy came into the room and bought for us two pandan cakes. she's so sweet! but the most amazing thing about her is that she, in front of all of us, told ian that she missed her boy. her tone sounds sad and in her teary eyes, i can tell that she really misses him.. thats so real.. so genuine..joey also intro to us a song called "and can it be" by church of rhythm and it really spoke to me telling me to really be myself, esp in front of God cause in front of Him, you cannot hide and there's nothing to hide.. :) next we played the cocoon game whereby we would have to be like a caterpillar and wriggle to our destination using the level 4 corridor..and the guys cheered a very unique cheer for us! its really funny and very cute! oh well.. but i forgot already haha.. and meiyin is super funny cause she made us do super funny actions! HAHA..some of us are blindfolded and we would have to play or run by ear, by our friend's instructions and encouragements..oh and my name is cocoon leng! haha so funny can! then was dinner time and my group cooked dinner! it was really good cause i learned from pastor cuixian how to fry luncheon meat and cooked fishball noodles! hahaha if i dont have job i think i can be a fishball noodle aunty, haha probably *meepok aunty* hor? ") haha.. then sister becky came to preach about how to become a man or woman of God and i find that she's really very engaging cause she would ask the audience questions and really get to know us.. :) to summarise, the four main ways to become a woman of God is to first flee from evil, pursue Godly virtues, fight for faith and lastly encourage others to do likewise! of course these aren't all but i feel its like a skeleton! :) again, the altar call is really amazing.. the sermon didn't really spoke to me but i prayed for people anyway.. so when i prayed for jialiang i have no idea what i said but God again reminded me of how small and insignificant we are yet He has given, poured and forgave although we broke His heart countless of times..its because of His love that so overwhelms us, and made us so drawn to Him.. its so amazing how God reminded me of humility.. :) then samantha prayed for me to have a leap of faith about my future and then joey gave me a word that i should let go of myself and let God take control! how they are linked! i'm so grateful that God had used people to speak to me..give thanks to the Lord.. :) that night, MO shared about what God had revealed to us and amazingly, one of us shared one of the deepest hurts with us and i'm really thankful for it.. :) thanks thanks cause you've made the first step.. :) its also cool how the "Is" interact with one another..the reason why we always do not complete our sharing is because we talked, shared and gave our own opinions a lot.. it is definitely not a bad thing cause i am glad that i managed to hear what everyone has to say.. :) i am finally seeing how advantageous of our different personalities. we slept really late at night cause we were given papers to write encouraging notes to one another..its also the last night that ya, min min and i can get to sleep together.. its really nice knowing gao min cause she's a really nice person.. very very nice.. when we were writing, i forgotten what exactly we said but nicole's reply was "cause i am an S (S in DISC) mah!" then both gao min and i started laughing like CRAZY!! we just cannot stop laughing!!! it got so bad that i had to leave the room cause lack of oxygen!!!! hahahahahaha!!!!! its super funny!!! its really an awesome night..with the two of them... love them lots lots...!! :)
31st december 2009 :)
we got to wake up later this time since we slept late last night and then had debrief and went head off for leaders retreat!! :)
its a really unique and different camp from the rest of the camps that i have been..not only because everyone loves God but also i was being taught to be REAL with everyone and this is something which is not present in other camps..i have gotten to know everyone and really cannot wait to continue the REAL journey with them! :)
throughout this camp i have learned super a lot of things and these are the things which struck me so here they are!
-in the midst of seriousness, there is still God's love
-1 Tim 4:12===setting example in love, speech, faith and purity
-when you have favour in God's eyes, you'll naturally gain favour in man
-potential is something which you cannot see, its a leap of faith
-failures mould your character which God has pre-destined
-God says,"I love you in spite of..."
-You need to know God's word for yourself so start reading yourself
-when you have a conflict, pray, ask God for wisdom, look for the right time
-when you worship, emotional worship and heart-felt worship is different. emotional is you purposely get into the feeling, but heart-felt is really thinking of the lyrics and thinking about God and what He has done in your life
-God is like the waves. hectic life is like the earphones covering our ears. take them off and you can hear God. God is always there, forever faithful
-the scenery changes, but God's glory remains
-it is not the God we wants, but the God who is
-because God is always the same, never lies, never changes, thats why we are drawn to Him
-don't make decisions on an impulse when you have the Holy Spirit, think twice
-we're still unique even though we're classified, so we can be changed (spirit controlled)
-God wants us to be involved in His plan as His partner
-our response and actions may affect God's decisions so we're very precious to Him
-we cannot change our personalty but we can change our attitude
-if you know everything, then what is faith for?
-if the question that you ask God answered, then it would be for your spirit growth
-don't underestimate the telling of a painful truth which you never know, might touch the core
-things should be used, people should be loved
-ministry=people
-we're like mirrors for one another, make one another holy, not happy
-don't get right before going to God but go to God to get right
-when you're real (authentic), you will be free
-be transformed by the renewal of your mind
-we have to run to God and be comfort by Him, then run to friends. if people run to you, you better run to God, if not they may think that you are god
-anything that you love is prioritise above God have to be brought to question
-its easy to get through a tough time when you know the reason why, but can you still trust God when you dunno the reason?
-the amount you read is not =applying in your lifestyle
-always remember your encounters with God
-it is often at the altar that we make decisions because it is where God's presence is real and that this decision is God-centred
-humbling ourselves before man is humiliating, but humbling ourselves before God is a liberation
-confrontation builds people's spiritual growth
-if you are ready, you are good. its not if you are good, you are ready
-the best approach through understanding people is to be open-minded
-when you are conscious of it and makes an effort, you will then grow
-set yourself apart by being humble and teachable
lengshan; thank God for REAL :)
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