crashed.

rushing. prayer. end. talking together. standing assembly. FT. big eyes. see her. 8. 15. lecturing. indian dance. force. drop 1. failed. barred. syf. practices wasted. fun gone. pointless. no one asked. told her. miss those times. didn't realise. useless. lousy. cried. everything's crashing.

trust. lean on God. Lordship. His will. Word of God. encourages. takes away shame. takes away guilt. we live because He died for us. pray.

challenging and cool week =)

this whole week is just so tough.. we have dance almost everyday.. mon wed thu and fri.. the tough part i think is the part when we'll have to sit in diamond shape.. very aching.. but i think all these tough days paid off when we've did so much on thu morning and we've almost completed and standardise everything that mr giresh have taught us.. awesome.. the happy feeling that we are almost there is so nice..!! love dance.. classical steps part are like super difficult and painful to the heels and knees.. but after you master it then you feel like you are top of the world! everyone work hard man!!! though everyone's knees are bruised and swollen but we only left 5 more weeks!!! =)

this week, i tried to pursue God in my life so deeply that i would want Him to know everything about me FIRST.. like how i am feeling.. happy or sad or worried or tired.. and i would try my very best to be patient and wait on Him.. and truly God really speaks to you when you learn to seek and wait on Him!! prayer should not be a one-way thing but a two-way thing!! i would want to turn to God when i am having problems, when i am happy about certain stuff, He should be my one and only.. God is a really caring and forgiving God.. =)
so if we find that we no longer have any love for God, it shows that we didn't spend enough time with Him..so pray and seek.. and He will be there.. and He will move you not by His power but by His love and gentle nature.. =)
today shash was so awesome!! well 9 ppl including phui and me is a pretty okay number, though its not full cell but i feel that today was very different.. i can feel God's presence so strongly not only in worship but also during teaching.. awesome God that He used phui to sent the lesson's message across.. and we did so much sharing today.. love shash deep deep!! =) God has brought to phui and i an awesome bunch of girls who are so open and willing to share!! =)

jia you xe!! we 5 will always be there for you.. and will not leave you.. so never be shy to share your problems with us.. haha take care.. =) super alot of things to do tmr!!! hehe.. hope it will be nice..and you will love it or them.. =)

You placed me in shash

when i know that i was posted to shash, i was shocked cause i am not prepared, just not ready.. i was from shash but ppl coming in and ppl going out, the cell somehow was different.. i went only a few times to shash last year, and i didn't really feel comfortable, unlike what i expected.. i guess cause i didn't know the majority of the people there..
from the start i didn't know what was God's purpose for putting me in as a CM.. but after knowing that my girl was facing the same situation i was in, i feel that i can connect and understand her tiredness.. cause its really very tiring.. alot of times just feel like giving up.. but we must press on and persevere for God and find strength in Him.. =) thank God for letting me know this.. =)

is Jesus inconvenient?

are our lives sometimes too busy that we have forgotten the one and only God we have and we loved? or probably the world has overtaken and has blinded us so much that we are so far away from God.. some lives, friends, music, books and stuff that we do in our daily lives are so bad that we wont want God to know or to get involved.. but God is like everywhere and He wants you to share and tell Him everything about you even though He knows you better than you know yourself..this video can really act as a reminder to us that we should be righteous in our ways cause what if one day Jesus were to came to visit your home or your life personally? how would you share with Him your life? share everything? or half? or just not at all?

What if Jesus Came

It might be interesting to know,
the things that you would do,
If Jesus came in person, to spend
some time with you.

Would you have to change your
clothes or clean your house before you let Him in?
Or hide some magazines, and put
the Bible out where he could see it?

Would you hide your worldly music
and put some hymn books out?
Could you let Jesus walk right in,
or would you rush about fixing things?

And I wonder if the Savior
spent a day or two with you,
Would you go right on doing,
the things you always do?

Would you go right on saying,
the things you always say?
Or would life for you continue
as it does from day to day?

Would you take Jesus with you
everywhere you go?
Or would you maybe change your
plans for the next few days?

Would you be glad to have Him
meet your closest friends?
Or would you hope they stay away
until His visit ends?

Would you be glad to have Him
stay forever on and on?
Or would you sigh with great
relief when He at last was gone?

It might be interesting to know,
the things that you would do,
If Jesus came in person, to spend
some time with you.

It makes you wonder how our lives are and where our lives should be.

go watch this video..it is really good..

http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=42dce992d450b858b277

This is our God =)

THIS IS OUR GOD
Your grace is enough
More than I need
At Your word I will believe
I wait for You
Draw near again
Let Your Spirit make me new

I will fall at Your feet
I will fall at Your feet
And I will worship You here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of Your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By Your Spirit I am free

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is the love
Poured out for all
This is our God
Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Servant and King
Rescued the world
This is our God

love the traveling time this morning before i go for the evangelistic event at g2..God just accompanied me with this song and i was so overwhelmed by God alone..this is really our God..irreplaceable..

so in love with you =)

SO IN LOVE WITH YOU
God I've found in You
Everything I was searching for
And You've given me
What I needed and so much more

So I'm giving every part of me to You
Won't You take my life I'm living it for You

Jesus I'll live for You
In everything I do
And when You call my name
I just can't help but sing Your praises

I'll give You all my praise
I'll serve You all my days
Gonna let the whole world know
Jesus I am so in love with You

Every day it's You I live for
Gonna serve You all my days
Every step I take You're with me
Jesus You're the only way

evermore =)

EVERMORE
Lost for words with all to say
Lord you take my breath away
Still my soul, my soul cries out
For you are holy

And as I look upon your name
Circumstances fade away
Now your glory steals my heart

You are holy
You are holy Lord

Evermore my heart, my heart will say
Above all, I live for your glory
Even if my world falls I will say
Above all, I live for your glory

With all my heart I'll say
I'm living for your name
With all to give you praise
We're living for your glory Lord

the greatest gift today

arghh so happy!!! today is hsuen chi as well as my birthday! =) it starts off today feeling so excited and happy though i slept late last night..hehe then all the messages from the dearest ppl on earth start flowing in.. and i was so touched by every single one of them!! =) went to the bus stop and wish my dear girl happy birthday too!! we both feel equally excited!! this year is my first year celebrating 10th feb together with her and though the feeling was different but it was awesome knowing that we both not only shared the same love for God but we are so similiar in our character! =) got to school and God really surprised me with worship in genesis! =) usually we dont do worship so thank God for this birthday present, worship. my last period was pe and i forgot to bring pe shirt.. =( thought ms eng will not believe me but thank God she did and while the rest of the class were running we had quite a nice chat..hehe though she was telling me how bad her classes were but i realised that she is a very nice teacher!!! super duper nice!! =) went out from school to meet ya then we head off to orchard!! actually wanted to watch either the wedding game or the curious case of benjamin button which obviously many ppl complimented it.. so we decided on that but eventually cause its too long so we didn't watch...we then went to taka to shop and eat.. and then to far east to go to the christian bookstore which is so nice!! i loved the atmosphere there cause there are very little ppl so its very quiet, soothing and peaceful.. the most prominent stuff there are the shirts!! hahaha they are very nice!! the shop aunt was very nice and approachable too! everything was so awesome..praise the Lord! had family dinner at some ulu korean restaurant and got a tweety cake!! so pretty! =) my birthday is so sweet.. eighteen... =) thks ppl for all the messages! really sweet..!! in a day bound to be happy and sad, and you were the sad part.

ya and elo- thks for the stuff your did for bulletin, it was so sweet... =) and ya thks for the tweety customised bottle i will use it! and i really enjoyed spending my day with you! its okay elo, cause you are always here with us we know.. =)

loved ones- kor thks for the card and red book! haha so dolly..very interesting.. =) mi..thks for the 2 pairs of sandals they were beautiful.. =)

jun- thks for the mail and the cake.. actually wanted you to celebrate it with me but well next time.. but i am so glad and happy that you remembered!!!!!!! =) love you jun..! =)

grace and minyang- thks for the cake of FRUITS and also the BEAR..haha you really have a great effort in thinking of that! thks for the sweet card too grace! =)

saltshakers- the "surprise" on sat was really surprising.. haha guess you guys will have to work on that! i was so overwhelmed by the yellow ppl! yellow notebook, yellow staple, tweety notebook, the almost yellow watch and the yellow big paper! hey char, thks for the schedule book! i have been like finding it for so long and you found it! grace, thks for your yellow cute egg-chick and the lovely yellow letter! and jess..i am just so glad and thankful to the Lord you came, esp for my birthday! =)

ah gong and kenneth- thks for the comfy yellow cushion! its super nice to hug! =)

joyce- thks for the purple book which has your name on it super cool! i can definitely use it for God's glory!! =)

phui see, gabwai, caleb, adler- thks for the card and the nice wishes! =)

vivien and eunice- vivien, thks for the lovely card, chocolate and most importantly (yes, you are super right! i love it!!) the sweetsss...!!! eunice, thks for your sweet piglet which is like super cute and your scroll! =)

wanqing- thks for your lovely mini mickey and lovely letter! =)

QZH- haha thks for your gift which is to accompany me the whole day..haha.. thks thks!! =) you are such an awesome friend and seriously very thoughtful.. =) and you never fail to cheer me up even though we haven met for so long!! knowing you since young its really cool to maintain this kinda friendship i must say! =) you rock totally! =)

God-You are my greatest gift.. =)

Lordship

xp kim kim talked about lots of stuff today.. most significant one would be to find God's will. finding God's will is not only restricted to like our future career, but also like the decisions that we make in our daily life. sometimes even the smallest little thing we should also place it in His hands.
at times in church we might say the sinnest prayer, asking God to come into our lives and rule or lord over our lives from that day onwards. yes we have to confess with our mouths but what does it mean by Lordship? most of the times after we sin, then ask for forgiveness and ask God to rule over our lives again, we would easily forget the fact that we want God to lord over our lives and then we will go back to the ways of the world again. actually, lordship means that, at that very moment which you are facing a crisis or the time when you know you are helpless and cannot solve the problem using your own strength, you then ask God to help you and not only that. you place your fullest trust in Him and let Him control the situation. this is then letting Him lord over your life, this is then Lordship. its definitely easier said than done. pray that not only at every crisis but even in good times, God will remind us to always place Him at the first in our hearts. talk to God like your best friend, like your Father and like your soulmate.

the reason why God gave cousins

ian, anne, joel, johan and andrea. they really brighten my day everyday i see them. their smile would be my joy and their cries and fights would be my sorrow. i would wanna try all ways to make them happy for they are just so dear to me.. we would all squeeze in one room.. we dont feel squeezy but yet cosy..! we would also have alot of fun playing 99 and doing all the weird weird stuff together!! the girls would comb hair and guys would play fight and those times are really memorable.. after spending so much time with them, i feel that i am more like their age and would want to be their age cause its so carefree and relax..!! they are like your friends and families and soulmates, with them, there is no such thing as restrictions and they can also understand how you feel and they would do the same things as you and you are important to them as much as they are to you and you can just dont care about your image in front of them.. they are the best.. that is the reason why God gave cousins.. pray that the Lord will bless them regardless of where they are or what they are doing now.. =)