shash-first cell

just now shash had cell at lucinda's house. but before that we met at anchorpoint at 6 but most people came late and the bus was delayed too. so by the time we reach lucinda's house it was like almost 7.30 already. cell was aimed to start at 6.30 but it was so seriously dragged until 7.30. hai.. but its okay..anyway lucinda's dog cherry was adorable and she's a white poodle.

anyway, for cell, we had worship then followed by thanksgiving and prayer request. actually its suppose to be the other way round but thought there's not enough time to do thksgiving and PR so i started off with worship first. felicia led worship and it ended soon, shorter than i expected. so naturally we had TG and PR. next i taught lesson, actually wanted to teach 2 lessons; overview of Daniel and the Fellowship but in the end only manage to do 1. well partially because i have no time, the other is cause i wasn't feeling so good on the inside. honestly, while i was teaching i felt so terrible, uncomfortable and burdened. its like as if its the world's most boring lesson ever. though the introduction is suppose to be dry but thats really not an excuse. somemore i still said sth incorrect like the people in the OT were christians but technically they are not you see as Christ had not come yet. while i was teaching i could feel myself simply reading from the worksheet and i just could not link from point to point, and didn't know how to carry on talking or teaching..the atmosphere was really awkward and everyone was like so bored.. it seems like my worst fears that i have imagined last year has become a reality. moreover, tracy had to call me 3 times and even russell had to call me 6 times for me to pick up the call to go fetch tracy. then i cause her to wait for like 15 mins below lucinda's block in the dark night, so sry to tracy.

oh ya.. grace was there during cell too, and i really wanna thank God for her.. while i was teaching and when we've had some awkward silence, she helped me to add in examples that could relate to the girls. the example came at the right moment and it was just so appropriate! i could never thank God enough for grace. and at the end she still encouraged me "good job!" even though i did a terrible job.. she really encourages me alot alot.. thks grace! i feel so blessed knowing that i can always count on you! =)

also, thk God for my shash girls.. they were really an awesome bunch of girls! they interact with one another and were really comfortable with one another! and i was pretty surprised that they actually listen. cause i thot that as i am only 2 years older than them, they might not listen to me. but when i ask them to stop watching, then they really stop. i was so taken aback. and the journey back home felt so warm and sweet, whereby everyone was enjoying the conversation that we all had! =)

hai..not only shash cell.. school stuff and ballet is really crashing over me. i feel so overwhelmed. dance practices, tough pe lessons, ballet twice cum difficult schoolwork, everything is coming down on me and i really feel so suffocated..hmmm i guess its in these times of crisis then i will learn to lean on the Lord and trust in Him more for He is sovereign still; He is always in control! just like how daniel had so much faith in the Lord, knowing that God can use the king of babylon, king nebuchadnezzar; a pagan king, to strengthen his faith through many many tests, i am sure God can also work the same miracles in me! =)

pray that things would get better as i seek God more, pray to God more and serve Him more.
FAITH; Forsake All I Trust Him