unseen words

you are a gift from God, so do not attempt to mould yourself in anyone's image. you are an individual and should be permitted to be yourself.

do not compare yourself with others who outshine you.

discipline yourself with firmness and reason. do not let your anger throw you off balance.

hope that you will not have everything your little heart desires otherwise you will never know the thrill of earning, the joy of deserving too.

do not make threats in anger or impossible promises when you are in your generous mood.

remember that there is dignity in hard work, whether it is performed with calloused hands that shovel coal or skilled fingers that handle surgical instruments. a useful life is a blessed one and that a life of ease and pleasure-seeking is empty and meaningless.

hope that you will not be protected from every small blow and disappointment because adversity strengthens character and makes us compassionate but trouble is the great equalizer, learn it.

love God and your fellow men. God didn't send us to worship service and bible class, He took us there, He took us to His house..

lengshan; adversity.

Bless The Broken Road by Rascal Flatts

Bless The Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rollin' home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

love :)

passion makes the world go round,
but love makes it a safer place :)

lengshan; :)

You're here with me

this is such an amazing weekend.
we went to church of singapore, oh well, with an open mind of course.
I missed the worship, but sat for the sermon.
it was a pretty normal sermon, nothing special, but without this sermon, I really wont be a step closer to my Heavenly Father.
the preacher talks about how God has blessed us richly everyday, just that we failed to see that coming, because we focused on ourselves.
God also have His unique way of answering prayers, our prayers. alot of times, we desire God to respond the way we wanted, helped and saved us the way we wanted. but we must bear in mind that God can work in unexpected ways.

the preacher told us this story,
there was a man who was about to drowned, so he prayed, "dear God, please save me!" and he genuinely trusted the Lord. believe that God would saved him. Just then came a boat, and the driver said, "hey, I can save you, just come up." but interestingly, the man said, "no no no, my God will save me!" so the boat went off. then, the water level rose higher, and the man saw a higher ground and so he went up. again, he prayed, "dear God, please save me!" Just then, a helicopter came. the ladder was let down to this man, but again, the man rejected, "no no no, my God will save me!" so the helicopter flew off. the water rose higher, and this time, the man drowned and died.
so he was being brought up to Heaven. Seeing God face to face, he asked God, "God, why didn't you save me? I trusted and I believed!" then God said, "I've sent people to save you, but you rejected them." then the man replied, "but God, I wanted you to open up the Heavens, I wanted You to reach down and save me!"

haha most of us are just like that, we wanted things our way, outcomes to happen the way we wanted, and sometimes, we wanted God to save, heal and speak to us in the way we requested for.

oh well, thats part of the sermon. then the preacher talks about pray and how God has blessed us frequently and how much He has blessed us. so she asked us to write down a prayer list. I wrote down alot, hehe.. but somehow, I just had one thing in mind at that moment, that I just wanted God to be here with me. I guessed God knew what I needed, and that is just Him and Him alone. so this service had a post-sermon worship, which isn't technically like altar call worship yeah..and guessed what! God showed me in the song that "You're here with me." I was like pretty taken aback, speechless somehow, but just merely smiled, knowing that hey, God cares and He has shown me! wow, its really been long since I've had this feeling, this awesome touch from Him. He answered my prayer (#1).

Today we went this graduation thing going on, and I really dread waking up so early. Last year, I managed to pull through because I woke up at this timing every sunday, but not this time, cause I have no cell on sunday mornings haha. anyway, I thought I wanted to give ya a surprise that I would meet her at the bus stop that she usually alights and walked together with her to church! but stupid me, plan a failed surprise. cause I waited for her at the opposite bus stop! arghh, I feel really dumbed, oh well, she doesn't get it, so oh well, nvm... but this kind of surprises should be nice isn't it? so when tiffy called me and told me that ya was here already, I was like oh my gosh, I knew it! so I ran to church, then there was this bicycle behind me, so I stopped running, stepped aside and let him cross first. and gosh you know what he said to me! he said, "keep running, girl, keep running!" and the song that was playing in my mp3 is "I will run to you"! wow, another surprise! what a different feeling to get a surprise from God! ok then the graduation ice breaker thing was really funny! keep laughing and laughing! haha! oh but most importantly, I love this graduation worship and I would remembered it. unknowingly, God shown me He cared, again. the second song we sang was in your hands, so close, where God told me again, that "You're here with me". He answered my prayer (#2).

I just thought that hmmm, a coincidence? I continued on thinking about those words, when the third song came, so obviously, "You're here with me". shocked, speechless, smiled. He answered my prayer (#3). never had I once in my life, when, honestly, I didn't seek so hard, so badly, yet He still comfort me. It shall always be my prayer, until He reveals again. Thank God.

lengshan; speechless before God ><

TS

how difficult to maintain, how difficult to fully express one's feelings, how difficult to trust the person completely, trusting that she would understand.
I felt super stressed yesterday, not sure why. Its just that everything appears to be going well, but not my heart. It felt burdened. as usual, I took my notes and head off to bed. feeling really restless, I dunno what to do. It was then I realised how long haven I been reading the bible and how long haven I been praying for people, as now that I was too cropped up with studies, or have I?
Light of the world, how difficult to shine when everyone's shining. yet, the dark seems so dark that you can actually shine easily. I guess only Christ has that ability, not me.
next morning, I took a different bus route to school. I woke up early just to make sure I won't be late. I love the 5, 171 bus route cause there would be hardly any njcians. I don't exactly know the reason as to why I like it, but I just appreciate the space and time for myself and God. I set off, with God in mind, but I failed. I turned to something so insignificant and my whole mind, the whole time was just all about it. even while I was doing both papers today, it didn't fail to stay in my head the entire period. I will find some ways to get it over, somehow.
on bus 5, there was this little girl, about age of 6, who is being accompanied by her grandpa on her way to school. she so innocently, counted the number of people who board the bus, loudly. looking at her, I recalled back the previous night about what my aunt told me about how adorable the girls in my family look when they were young. This made me miss my cousins in aus so so so much..especially andrea. this lovely angelic cousin of mine is always so sweet. now that she has done our family proud cause she's won some really awesome award so she'll be representing western aus to compete in Brisbane! so proud of her!! haven seen them for real long, and I really wanna hold them in my arms before they grow up. no turning back time is really a bad thing. same goes for age, you just cannot be younger. oh well, thats something we would have to adapt and live with.

lengshan; you're not sorry

this should be what you are thinking

it is not His power or the miracles that He perform
it is the love of Christ
that draws people

its on this time.

it came back again. since I've hold on for more than one year, I can hold on for another 6 months. I will try to hide it, even when I have to act like a stranger to that person, just in case he suspects, I would. there's a reason for this 6 months that I am giving myself, to give it all that I've got, hoping to match up to you. that 6 months start on 13th sep, and it goes a multiple of threes, oh well, three is my favourite number.

a lot of times it feels like a one-sided thing. I wonder if its wrong, whether its bad, but many times, I feel that its worth it, to invest my time and effort. its okie, until I run out of energy and the perseverance, I won't give up and would be waiting. nothing should be changed, and it shall remain a secret.

I am happy the way things are now, though at times I wanted more, but I shan't be selfish. I don't want you to change because of me, for I like the way you are now. we'll see how, see how much we both change after 3+3=6 months.

lengshan; triple tr____ tragedy