this is such an amazing weekend.
we went to church of singapore, oh well, with an open mind of course.
I missed the worship, but sat for the sermon.
it was a pretty normal sermon, nothing special, but without this sermon, I really wont be a step closer to my Heavenly Father.
the preacher talks about how God has blessed us richly everyday, just that we failed to see that coming, because we focused on ourselves.
God also have His unique way of answering prayers, our prayers. alot of times, we desire God to respond the way we wanted, helped and saved us the way we wanted. but we must bear in mind that God can work in unexpected ways.
the preacher told us this story,
there was a man who was about to drowned, so he prayed, "dear God, please save me!" and he genuinely trusted the Lord. believe that God would saved him. Just then came a boat, and the driver said, "hey, I can save you, just come up." but interestingly, the man said, "no no no, my God will save me!" so the boat went off. then, the water level rose higher, and the man saw a higher ground and so he went up. again, he prayed, "dear God, please save me!" Just then, a helicopter came. the ladder was let down to this man, but again, the man rejected, "no no no, my God will save me!" so the helicopter flew off. the water rose higher, and this time, the man drowned and died.
so he was being brought up to Heaven. Seeing God face to face, he asked God, "God, why didn't you save me? I trusted and I believed!" then God said, "I've sent people to save you, but you rejected them." then the man replied, "but God, I wanted you to open up the Heavens, I wanted You to reach down and save me!"
haha most of us are just like that, we wanted things our way, outcomes to happen the way we wanted, and sometimes, we wanted God to save, heal and speak to us in the way we requested for.
oh well, thats part of the sermon. then the preacher talks about pray and how God has blessed us frequently and how much He has blessed us. so she asked us to write down a prayer list. I wrote down alot, hehe.. but somehow, I just had one thing in mind at that moment, that I just wanted God to be here with me. I guessed God knew what I needed, and that is just Him and Him alone. so this service had a post-sermon worship, which isn't technically like altar call worship yeah..and guessed what! God showed me in the song that "You're here with me." I was like pretty taken aback, speechless somehow, but just merely smiled, knowing that hey, God cares and He has shown me! wow, its really been long since I've had this feeling, this awesome touch from Him. He answered my prayer (#1).
Today we went this graduation thing going on, and I really dread waking up so early. Last year, I managed to pull through because I woke up at this timing every sunday, but not this time, cause I have no cell on sunday mornings haha. anyway, I thought I wanted to give ya a surprise that I would meet her at the bus stop that she usually alights and walked together with her to church! but stupid me, plan a failed surprise. cause I waited for her at the opposite bus stop! arghh, I feel really dumbed, oh well, she doesn't get it, so oh well, nvm... but this kind of surprises should be nice isn't it? so when tiffy called me and told me that ya was here already, I was like oh my gosh, I knew it! so I ran to church, then there was this bicycle behind me, so I stopped running, stepped aside and let him cross first. and gosh you know what he said to me! he said, "keep running, girl, keep running!" and the song that was playing in my mp3 is "I will run to you"! wow, another surprise! what a different feeling to get a surprise from God! ok then the graduation ice breaker thing was really funny! keep laughing and laughing! haha! oh but most importantly, I love this graduation worship and I would remembered it. unknowingly, God shown me He cared, again. the second song we sang was in your hands, so close, where God told me again, that "You're here with me". He answered my prayer (#2).
I just thought that hmmm, a coincidence? I continued on thinking about those words, when the third song came, so obviously, "You're here with me". shocked, speechless, smiled. He answered my prayer (#3). never had I once in my life, when, honestly, I didn't seek so hard, so badly, yet He still comfort me. It shall always be my prayer, until He reveals again. Thank God.
lengshan; speechless before God ><
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
TS
how difficult to maintain, how difficult to fully express one's feelings, how difficult to trust the person completely, trusting that she would understand.
I felt super stressed yesterday, not sure why. Its just that everything appears to be going well, but not my heart. It felt burdened. as usual, I took my notes and head off to bed. feeling really restless, I dunno what to do. It was then I realised how long haven I been reading the bible and how long haven I been praying for people, as now that I was too cropped up with studies, or have I?
Light of the world, how difficult to shine when everyone's shining. yet, the dark seems so dark that you can actually shine easily. I guess only Christ has that ability, not me.
next morning, I took a different bus route to school. I woke up early just to make sure I won't be late. I love the 5, 171 bus route cause there would be hardly any njcians. I don't exactly know the reason as to why I like it, but I just appreciate the space and time for myself and God. I set off, with God in mind, but I failed. I turned to something so insignificant and my whole mind, the whole time was just all about it. even while I was doing both papers today, it didn't fail to stay in my head the entire period. I will find some ways to get it over, somehow.
on bus 5, there was this little girl, about age of 6, who is being accompanied by her grandpa on her way to school. she so innocently, counted the number of people who board the bus, loudly. looking at her, I recalled back the previous night about what my aunt told me about how adorable the girls in my family look when they were young. This made me miss my cousins in aus so so so much..especially andrea. this lovely angelic cousin of mine is always so sweet. now that she has done our family proud cause she's won some really awesome award so she'll be representing western aus to compete in Brisbane! so proud of her!! haven seen them for real long, and I really wanna hold them in my arms before they grow up. no turning back time is really a bad thing. same goes for age, you just cannot be younger. oh well, thats something we would have to adapt and live with.
lengshan; you're not sorry
I felt super stressed yesterday, not sure why. Its just that everything appears to be going well, but not my heart. It felt burdened. as usual, I took my notes and head off to bed. feeling really restless, I dunno what to do. It was then I realised how long haven I been reading the bible and how long haven I been praying for people, as now that I was too cropped up with studies, or have I?
Light of the world, how difficult to shine when everyone's shining. yet, the dark seems so dark that you can actually shine easily. I guess only Christ has that ability, not me.
next morning, I took a different bus route to school. I woke up early just to make sure I won't be late. I love the 5, 171 bus route cause there would be hardly any njcians. I don't exactly know the reason as to why I like it, but I just appreciate the space and time for myself and God. I set off, with God in mind, but I failed. I turned to something so insignificant and my whole mind, the whole time was just all about it. even while I was doing both papers today, it didn't fail to stay in my head the entire period. I will find some ways to get it over, somehow.
on bus 5, there was this little girl, about age of 6, who is being accompanied by her grandpa on her way to school. she so innocently, counted the number of people who board the bus, loudly. looking at her, I recalled back the previous night about what my aunt told me about how adorable the girls in my family look when they were young. This made me miss my cousins in aus so so so much..especially andrea. this lovely angelic cousin of mine is always so sweet. now that she has done our family proud cause she's won some really awesome award so she'll be representing western aus to compete in Brisbane! so proud of her!! haven seen them for real long, and I really wanna hold them in my arms before they grow up. no turning back time is really a bad thing. same goes for age, you just cannot be younger. oh well, thats something we would have to adapt and live with.
lengshan; you're not sorry
Monday, September 14, 2009
this should be what you are thinking
it is not His power or the miracles that He perform
it is the love of Christ
that draws people
it is the love of Christ
that draws people
Sunday, September 13, 2009
its on this time.
it came back again. since I've hold on for more than one year, I can hold on for another 6 months. I will try to hide it, even when I have to act like a stranger to that person, just in case he suspects, I would. there's a reason for this 6 months that I am giving myself, to give it all that I've got, hoping to match up to you. that 6 months start on 13th sep, and it goes a multiple of threes, oh well, three is my favourite number.
a lot of times it feels like a one-sided thing. I wonder if its wrong, whether its bad, but many times, I feel that its worth it, to invest my time and effort. its okie, until I run out of energy and the perseverance, I won't give up and would be waiting. nothing should be changed, and it shall remain a secret.
I am happy the way things are now, though at times I wanted more, but I shan't be selfish. I don't want you to change because of me, for I like the way you are now. we'll see how, see how much we both change after 3+3=6 months.
lengshan; triple tr____ tragedy
a lot of times it feels like a one-sided thing. I wonder if its wrong, whether its bad, but many times, I feel that its worth it, to invest my time and effort. its okie, until I run out of energy and the perseverance, I won't give up and would be waiting. nothing should be changed, and it shall remain a secret.
I am happy the way things are now, though at times I wanted more, but I shan't be selfish. I don't want you to change because of me, for I like the way you are now. we'll see how, see how much we both change after 3+3=6 months.
lengshan; triple tr____ tragedy
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
moment by moment
1 June
If ever you're feeling low, down and away from God, P-U-S-H, pray until something happens.
1 June
We live not merely for ourselves but for the honour of the One who made us to worship and enjoy Him forever! life is short, live for God!
6 June
God is larger than the events that seem to contradict God's goodness. God is always in control behind the scenes.
7 June
"My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and truth." What we say is significant to a watching world only if its consistent with what we do. As we tell ppl about Christ's love, those words will communicate powerfully if surrounded by acts of love and kindness. Actions do speak louder!
2 July
Imagine, then, how it must grieve God when we ignore Him. Think of how His heart of love just break when, despite the fact that He dwells within us through the Holy Spirit, we act as if He's not there. Or consider how He must have felt when His guidelines contained in the Bible He gave us are ignored. Lets be careful not to ignore God. In ways large and small, lets keep Him in our thoughts moment by moment. We do that by reading the inspired writings He has given us; by spending time in prayer and listening for His still, small voice; by thinking about His presence; by serving others in His name.
12 July
The Bible calls the pursuit of more stuff "greed". The "good life" cannot be found in things. Instead of seeking our security by acquiring "more stuff", may we find satisfaction by investing our resources, knowledge and lives in and for His Kingdom.
14 July
Happy moments Praise God
Difficult moments Seek God
Quiet moments Worship God
Painful moments Trust God
Every moment Thank God
18 July
A man's heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Our view of life is restricted by our humanness, but we can trust ourselves to the One who has unlimited view! We see in, God sees the whole!
24 July
Be angry and do not sin. But most often our anger comes from our own self-interest and pride. If our temper gets the best of us, can we lose control of what we say and do. Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind. When a person's temper gets the best of him, it often reveals the worst of him.
27 July
Instead, He reminds us that when it comes to caring for the minds and hearts of others, we can't rely on human ingenuity and muscle. What we really need is the wisdom of God. Without being quarrelsome or arrogant, the Lord's servant must use gentleness and patience. A blend of truth and grace in the presence of danger is more than self-protection. It illustrates for others the heart of the One we are urging them to embrace. Use caution and grace when straightening out someone who has strayed!
1 August
The joy is not in the presence of pain but in the knowledge that God is using our pain to refine us and make us better, not bitter. If we embrace adversity, then we'll learn what we should know, our grief will turn into gain. God chooses what we go through, we choose how we go through it.
3 August
Some people are like that with God. They run away from Him in fear. They don't know that He loves them and richly provides them with everything for their enjoyment. Nothing is more powerful to engage our affection than to find that we are [loved by] One who is altogether lovely. How must this astonish and delight us; how must it overcome our fear and melt our hearts. God's love is the perfect love that "casts out fear". Your loving Heavenly Father never takes His eyes off you!
6 August
God has sometimes wanted us to share our faith with someone we didn't know very well, or to give an offering that was far beyond what we usually give, or to confront someone about a situation. While we stretch our spiritual muscles, we may feel discomfort. But God assures us, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness". When you boldly step out in faith and obedience to God, you may be surprised at how a "good stretch" can strengthen your spiritual life! Our faith stretched by exchanging our weakness for God's strength.
those above were found in my phone last year, how nice.. :)
lengshan; MT
If ever you're feeling low, down and away from God, P-U-S-H, pray until something happens.
1 June
We live not merely for ourselves but for the honour of the One who made us to worship and enjoy Him forever! life is short, live for God!
6 June
God is larger than the events that seem to contradict God's goodness. God is always in control behind the scenes.
7 June
"My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and truth." What we say is significant to a watching world only if its consistent with what we do. As we tell ppl about Christ's love, those words will communicate powerfully if surrounded by acts of love and kindness. Actions do speak louder!
2 July
Imagine, then, how it must grieve God when we ignore Him. Think of how His heart of love just break when, despite the fact that He dwells within us through the Holy Spirit, we act as if He's not there. Or consider how He must have felt when His guidelines contained in the Bible He gave us are ignored. Lets be careful not to ignore God. In ways large and small, lets keep Him in our thoughts moment by moment. We do that by reading the inspired writings He has given us; by spending time in prayer and listening for His still, small voice; by thinking about His presence; by serving others in His name.
12 July
The Bible calls the pursuit of more stuff "greed". The "good life" cannot be found in things. Instead of seeking our security by acquiring "more stuff", may we find satisfaction by investing our resources, knowledge and lives in and for His Kingdom.
14 July
Happy moments Praise God
Difficult moments Seek God
Quiet moments Worship God
Painful moments Trust God
Every moment Thank God
18 July
A man's heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Our view of life is restricted by our humanness, but we can trust ourselves to the One who has unlimited view! We see in, God sees the whole!
24 July
Be angry and do not sin. But most often our anger comes from our own self-interest and pride. If our temper gets the best of us, can we lose control of what we say and do. Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind. When a person's temper gets the best of him, it often reveals the worst of him.
27 July
Instead, He reminds us that when it comes to caring for the minds and hearts of others, we can't rely on human ingenuity and muscle. What we really need is the wisdom of God. Without being quarrelsome or arrogant, the Lord's servant must use gentleness and patience. A blend of truth and grace in the presence of danger is more than self-protection. It illustrates for others the heart of the One we are urging them to embrace. Use caution and grace when straightening out someone who has strayed!
1 August
The joy is not in the presence of pain but in the knowledge that God is using our pain to refine us and make us better, not bitter. If we embrace adversity, then we'll learn what we should know, our grief will turn into gain. God chooses what we go through, we choose how we go through it.
3 August
Some people are like that with God. They run away from Him in fear. They don't know that He loves them and richly provides them with everything for their enjoyment. Nothing is more powerful to engage our affection than to find that we are [loved by] One who is altogether lovely. How must this astonish and delight us; how must it overcome our fear and melt our hearts. God's love is the perfect love that "casts out fear". Your loving Heavenly Father never takes His eyes off you!
6 August
God has sometimes wanted us to share our faith with someone we didn't know very well, or to give an offering that was far beyond what we usually give, or to confront someone about a situation. While we stretch our spiritual muscles, we may feel discomfort. But God assures us, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness". When you boldly step out in faith and obedience to God, you may be surprised at how a "good stretch" can strengthen your spiritual life! Our faith stretched by exchanging our weakness for God's strength.
those above were found in my phone last year, how nice.. :)
lengshan; MT
Monday, September 7, 2009
secrets credits
those really important:
-spongebob squarepants
-woodstock
-garfield
-pig
-violet
-big air
-star
-SA
-skipping rope
-caramel
-tazmanian
-astro
-butterfly
-flower
-coke
-bookworm
-touchy
-wushu
-filled room
-hilter
-underground dream
-spongebob squarepants
-woodstock
-garfield
-pig
-violet
-big air
-star
-SA
-skipping rope
-caramel
-tazmanian
-astro
-butterfly
-flower
-coke
-bookworm
-touchy
-wushu
-filled room
-hilter
-underground dream
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
30th august
what's the most hurtful thing?
what will then make you tear on the spot?
what will make you keep thinking
until you just can't concentrate?
what will make you miss the person so much
yet you just don't want to see the person again?
what will you make you keep
looking to the future,
knowing that you will see nothing?
I thought I've learned my lesson
but the fact is, I haven't
here I am
trying my best not to think about it
but you're influencing me
wrong, it just feels so wrong
nothing beats a loved one leaving
what will then make you tear on the spot?
what will make you keep thinking
until you just can't concentrate?
what will make you miss the person so much
yet you just don't want to see the person again?
what will you make you keep
looking to the future,
knowing that you will see nothing?
I thought I've learned my lesson
but the fact is, I haven't
here I am
trying my best not to think about it
but you're influencing me
wrong, it just feels so wrong
nothing beats a loved one leaving
lengshan; weird weird auntie and soya bean
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